had so much so much fun with so many people tis past week...
it was indescribable..
had like e best time in a long time..
stayed out late evrynite...
plus without having to go for work...
which was a major plus cuz i was reali so sick of working..

shall not go into the details of wat i did..cuz i seriously cannot remember ..
took lot of fotos but i dun have it cuz my camera is down...
but the gist of it is...
i went fish farm..
dog farm..
met e Bimbs..
it was a major treat cuz so many people were there..
deb jennnie ann angela angeline bong neo hansheng..
went for dinner at hansheng coffee shop..
had a reali good seafood dinner..
jurong bird park..
met vanessa...
went ktv..
met alot of new frenz..
willy windz stanley and so many more im too lazy to name...
cant rmb all e names too..
major zouking as well..
seniors.. saw eugene ervin nolan lionel joel..
loads of SA pepz too!!
had dinner with several impt people..
of which aikawa nanase n pretty boy is a must mention..

now im supposed to be at hall camp..
but i juz sneaked out to bathe n clean up my room...
maybe drop by again later to say hi...
so bored though,...
dun wanna stay leh...
maybe will sneak out again soon...
fright nite n initiation shld be fun...
but ... haiz... evryone having camp... sian...
been working so much im so gonna die..
~tas

Hey girl,

wat is e matter u're crying ur heart out again

Don't lie girl, this was not some accident,

your bruises they give you away.

Ur face sighs in shades of purple,

Ur eyes a story of pain

Walk away,

U're worth more than he'll ever realize,

Pls walk away.

Spare urself this pain

cant you see that he's not worth it?

You're not mean to be treated this way,

walk away.

You say tht you really love him,

you say that he'll notice someday

But your face still sighs in the purple,

your eyes tells a story of shame,

walk away

You're worth more than he'll ever realize baby walk away,

spare urself this pain,

Cant u see tht he's not worth it?

You've been waitin for his love for so long,

you may not live to see tht day.

baby walk away.

Ur not meant to be treated this way.

walk away.

walk away.

was away.

stupidity of an undying love. love was e underlying factor. existance of love n emotions. caused pain n hurt. i found a road tht leads to nowhere. lost in e middle. i cant find my footing.. i need to be back on solid ground. time is of the esssence. time heals all wounds.. does it? words easily said. easier said than done. dun say a word. cuz evry word u say has a dire effect on me. do u hear?its e sound of silence. tis life is over rated. i sure hope it gets better as it goes. tears come streaming down my face. again stuck in reversal.
i dun wanna be miserable.
~tas

tis is e dunno how manyth time im goin on a shopping spree...
not exactly tht i bought alot of stuff..
juz tht i bought one thing reali majorly impulsively..
Adidas limited edition missy elliot respect me jacket!!
im super happy i bought it...
feeling e pinch but wat e heck..
i know i love it..
but my brother say not nice..
sad... oh wells...
i oso bought a pants..
i tink its gorgeous..
love e buttons on it..
reali nice reali pretty..

somehow i wish i know alot more things..
understd some people.
wish i can learn to walk away..
walk away frm anytink i cannot take.
its painful holding on.
silly too.
~tas

i never know why you do tis to me.
it took me so long to finally get over it.
i dunno when i'll ever find tis courage again.
trust and promises are words i dun tink will exist anymore.
time n again.

why did u hafta come back.
juz stay there n dun appear in front of me again.
why did i believe evry word tht u say is true.
said n done. its never gonna happen.
superman. yeah rite.

dun deny me tis im goin thru.
~tas

my dear loverboy... KIYO!!!!! :) :) :)

situations.
it could be anyone.

met Aikawa Nanase for dinner today..
she was with her family..
here to spore on holiday..
they are reali super duper sweet..
invited chris florence n me for a get together...
gave us a nice treat to italian food..
i reali miss her...
so glad to be able to see her again..
its amazing how nice she is..
keeping in mind tht she is a famous rock queen in japan..
im so in love with Kiyo now..
he's super duper cute...
so good looking..
so beautiful eyes..
n super long lashes..
hope to see her again soon..
:)
~tas

no im not gonna start blaming you for evrytink..
its juz tht i dun understd so many things..
all i know is tht i hope i wont see you again.
i dun wanna know how u are doing..
i dun wanna know wats goin on in ur life..
the moment tht happens i'll want out.
when love n hate collide.
~tas

i dunno juz wassup with me..
call me stupid. call me moronic.
i guess i juz suck at making decisions..
evry single one i made is wrong.
so wrong.
sometimes i wonder why.
am i plain silly ...
or do i have gullible written all over my forehead..??
maybe i shld learn..
im still trying..
maybe im not trying hard enuff.
i need to shake myself up.
stop being an idiot.
nana is an idiot.
nana.
~tas

Alison n me..
she's super adorable la!!
miss chye.. she flew off to NZ alrdy..
me on Joy's hammock..
Ally n me in Joy's room..

i sometimes wonder if i can reali be happy..
the more i try the more im not happy..
i know i kid myself alot of e times..
like i said before..
e mind is easily manipulated..
but it can be complicated n difficult to understd..
juz like how i contradict myself all e time...
sths e good things in life comes when u least expect it..
the sweet bitter salty sour..
watever comes.
~tas

retail therapy works wonders..
shopped so crazily today!!!
i bought 9 tops!!!
of which i love every single one of them!!!
bought soooo many other stuff...
im superly duperly happy!!!!!
no wonder david says i change mood like change clothes..
mood changes frm day to day so fast he cant understd..
but duno why i still tink abt him evrytime i see anytink..
oh wells.. the aftermath of it all..
one thing im sure is tht im so happy im so glad now :)

and my room is so superly duperly neat!!
a reali vast difference frm juz a week ago...
i love it tis neat n tidy..
but i doubt it'll last long.. :p

im off to do stuff... duno wat la.
~tas

i feel like such an utter moron.
but at least i cleared one thing.
thts for sure.
~tas

the funny thing is tht i've onli known u for 10 days of which i met u on five days.
and alrdy im balling my eyes out for u.
~tas

Thank You

how 'bout getting off of these antibiotics
how 'bout stopping eating when I'm full up
how 'bout them transparent dangling carrots
how 'bout that ever elusive kudo

thank you India
thank you terror
thank you disillusionment
thank you frailty
thank you consequence
thank you thank you silence

how 'bout me not blaming you for everything
how 'bout me enjoying the moment for once
how 'bout how good it feels to finally forgive you
how 'bout grieving it all one at a time

the moment I let go of it was
the moment I got more than I could handle
the moment I jumped off of it was
the moment I touched down

how 'bout no longer being masochistic
how 'bout remembering your divinity
how 'bout unabashedly bawling your eyes out
how 'bout not equating death with stopping

thank you India
thank you Providence
thank you disillusionment
thank you nothingness
thank you clarity
thank you thank you silence

Leon n me!
elaine ah-xiang me
ting - my dearest birthday girl!! happy 21st!! i love ya loads loadS!!!
us three again with spastic faces..
reaching for e stars!!

xiang n me
xin n me
royston n me

im sick.
reali sick.
fever.
headache.
bad sore throat.
lost my voice.
flu.
cough.
argh.
~tas

had a great day today!
radical was incredible!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ESTA!! :)
so amazed and captivated by ur voice.
awesomeness.

met reali interesting people for reali reali late supper.
they are interesting beyond words.
stunned n blanked out for words so many times.
haha still say wanna go hk together.
dixon.. haha.. i love hardos now!!
no la. dixon. jen. fong.
brought some thrill to my broing nite :)

~tas

the sweetest ache.

trust me when i say sth.
i know i may not be a person who falls in love easily.
but i know once i do, i fall so hard i cant get up.
and now i finally got up.
wasnt easily but i can say tht i did now, aft so long.

i ask myself if i can be a heartless person.
maybe juz e attitude. i can onli pretend to.

met PSF today for a quick lunch. :)
met joy too to bring her for e interview.

head hurts like mad. headache
~tas