i think i am quite insensitive nowadays.
too blatant. too direct. too frank.
speakk my mind too easily tht i might offend ppl unknowingly.
i feel a change in me. somehow like im evolving into someone new.
juz a random thought.
~tas

you havnt changed one bit have you?
its always been like this.
now i've caught on as well.
been feeling crappy these days.
falling sick ever so often.
shitty feelings make me prone to being sick.
im tired of this.
liar thru and thru.
with the heated weather, my temper is aggravated too.
wish somehow it'll get cooler.
i need to cool down.
~tas

getting all ready for the trip!! :) smu camp! :)

i duno wat is it i want to do and wat it is tht makes me happy.
i cant seem to want a job real badly.
and evry job that i go to i dun like it.
i want a job, but im a bundle of contradictions.
can someone find me a job pls.
:(

sometimes i dun even know why i even bother.
like nothing i vaguely know makes sense.
and here i am being so silly abt it.
will be away for awhile and i guess it will be really good for me.
im tired and awfully depressed by everything.
its beginning to take a toil on me.
and now i really dun want to bother anymore.
and also i dun like pudgy hands anymore.
~tas

i finally mustered enuff courage to delete all the msgs and dumped the phone! :)
it made me lose so much of myself and im not gonna let that happen again!
:) its a huge step for me to take and i am so glad i did.
been clearing out alot of stuff from my room and declutter all the trash.
i am gonna be a whole new person! :)
hurray to that!!
i am loving it.
~tas

The feel of an icecube
Melting overtime
The world seems bigger
Than both of us
Yet it seems so small
when I begin to cry
There's a lot of things I understand
And there's a lot of things that
I don't want to know
But you're the only face I recognize
It's so damn sweet of you
to look me in the eyes

Everyone has their first date,
and their object is to hide your flaws
and then your in a relationship,
and its abt hiding your disappointment,
then your married,
its abt hiding your sins.

how skeptical can one be?
~tas

been feeling awful lately. eating alot of chocolates, and i mean really alot of chocolates. but it somehow doesnt really help now. chocolates are supposed to make me feel good. but why not anymore? i dunnno i really dunnno. some how. maybe the emptiness gets to me.

was at brewerks today, i want so much to drink, but somehow i can even finish one beer. beat that. talk to shane earlier today. i realised so many things. his birthday celebrations, meeting with sami and all. yet all these are coming to an end. there is a possibility he might be working here if the interview is successful. somehow my heart starts to wonder.

and the macarones. i wonder. will they be shared again. or with someone else. someone im waiting for now. will i change my mind. cuz if one day i wake up and my heart will start to wonder or wander.

almost over you. i talk abt tht guy even when i am wit you and so do you. talk abt her. maybe u will mean tht much to me, but right now i havnt got up.

i was arranging my files on my com today and i deleted so many files. i dunnno when i find the guts to do tht. but i trashed everything. is tht guts or what? :D my com is clean. time for a change. move on. thats the book im reading now. been reading quite alot now. thats not my name.
~tas