when u feel despondent ..
discard the strong front..
u dun need to be so strong..
give urself a break once in awhile..
love can make u go all wrong..
it makes u so unsure..
you never knew how fast ur heart can beat..
it almost gives you a nervous breakdown..
yet u'd pursure e feeling no matter wat..
~tas

read the most amazing thing put together...
it sure did bring back alot of memories for me..
tht nostalgic feeling eh.. made me feel small again..
cuz like 90% of wat he mentioned applied.
but at e same time old. cuz it was so long ago!
duno whether to laugh or to cry at our silliness once upon a time..
below is sth taken from Duane's blog.. http://justduane.blogspot.com/
he e one person who never fails to fascinate me e way he tinks & speak & blog..
kudos to you for coming up with tis... =)

Fond memories
For those who born in the 70s and 80s.
1. You grew up watching He-man, MASK, Transformers, Silver Hawk and Mickey Mouse. Not to forget, Ninja turtles, MyLittle Pony and Smurfs too.
2. You grew up brushing your teeth with a mugin Primary school during recess time. You will squat by a drainwith all your classmates beside you, and brush your teethwith a coloured mug.The teachers said you must brush each side 10 times too.
3. You know what SBC stands for.
4. You pay 40 cents for Chocolate or Strawberry MILK every week in
class.
5. You watch a very popular Malay dubbed Japanese drama on RTM1 about schoolgirls who possess powerful skills in volleyball called Meoro Attack.
6. You find your friends with pagers and handphone cool in Secondary
school.
7. SBS buses used to be non-airconditioned. The bus seats are made of wood and the cushion is red. The big red bell gives a loud BEEP! when pressed. There are colourful tickets forTIBS buses. The conductor will check for tickets by using a machine which punches a hole in ticket.
8. Envelopes given us to donate to Sharity Elephant every Children's Day.
9. You've probably read Young Generation magazine.You know who's Vinny the little vampire and Acai the constable.
10. You were there when they first introduced MRT here. You went for the first ride with your parents and you would kneel on theseat to see the scenery.
11. Movie tickets used to cost only $3.50. &@%#$*@#$^*!@#&^$
12. Gals are fascinated by Strawberry ShortCake and Barbie Dolls.
13. You learn to laugh like The Count inSesame Street.
14. You longed to buy tibits called Kaka (20 cents per pack), andDing Dang (50 cents per box), that had a toy in it and it changes every week not forgetting the 15 cents animal crackers and the ring pop, wherethe lollipop is the diamond on the ring.
15. You watched TV2 (also known as Channel 10) cartoons because Channel 5 never had enough cartoons for you.
16. Hardy Boys, Nancy Drew, The Three Investigators, Famous Five and Secret Seven are probably the thickest story books you ever thought you have read. Even Sweet Valley High and Malory Towers.
17. KFC used to be a high class restaurant that serve food in plates and let you use metal forks and knives.
18. The most vulgar thing you said was asshole and idiot and THE MOST EXTREME WAS 'super white'...you just couldn't bring yourself to say the hokkien relative.
19. Catching was the IN thing and twist as the magic word.
20. Your English workbooks was made of somedamn poor quality paper that was smooth and yellow.
21. CDIS were your bestfriend
22. The only computer lessons in school involved funny pixellised
characters in 16 colours walking about trying to teach you maths.
23. Waterbottles were slinged around your neckand a must everywhere you go.
24. Boys loved to play soccer w small plasticballs in basketball court.
25. Teng-teng, five stones, chapteh, hentambola and zero point were all the rage with the girls and boys too...
26. Science was fun with the balsam and the angsana being the most important plants of our lives, guppies and swordtail being the most important fish.
27. Who can forget Ahmad, Bala, Sumei and John, eternalized in our minds from the textbooks. Even Mr Wally & Mr.Yakki. What abt Miss Lala??? And Zaki and Tini in Malay Textbooks
28. We carry out experiments of our own to get yourself badges for being a Young Zoologist/Botanist etc.
29. Every Children's day, National day you either get pins or pens with 'Happy Children's Day 1993' or dumbfiles w 'Happy National Day 1994'. 30. In Primary six you had to play buddy for the younger kids like big
sister and brother.
31. We wear BM2000, BATA, or Pallas shoes.
32. Your form teacher taught you Maths, Science and English.
33. The worksheets were made of brown rough paper of poor quality.
34. You went to school in slippers and a raincoat when it rained,and you find a dry spot in the school to sit down, dry your feet, and wear your dry and warm socks and shoes.
35. School dismissal time was normally around 1 pm.
36. There would be spelling tests and mental sums to do almost
everyday.
37. Your friends considered you lucky and rich ifyour parents gave you $3 or more for pocket money everyday.
38. You see Wee Kim Wee's face in the school hall.
39. You freak out when the teacher tells you to line up according to height and hold hands with the corresponding boy or girl
40. Boys like to catch fighting spiders.
41. Collecting and battling erasers was a pastime for boys.
42. Autograph books were loaded with "BestWishes", "Forget Me Not", and smallpoems like "Bird fly high, hard to catch.Friend like you, hard to forget".
43. Class monitors and prefects loved to say "You talk somemore, I write your name ah!"
44. There were at least 40 people in one class.
45. Large, colourful schoolbags were carried.
46. You brought every single book to school, even though there was one thing called the timetable.

~memories.

i have e most adorable friend ever..

dun u tink ?? :D

a day of us both sick ..

and trying to mug at och library..

how do i manage to look so happy studying ah?? :(

thank you for always tolerating my nonsense..
i know how spoilt i am..
wish somehow ur not tht nice to me..
so at least i wont feel so bad e way i am to you..
thanks for always giving in to me ..
makes life alot eazier to bear..
~tas

heart.
you.
feel utterly emo now...
...dun ask why cuz i wont tell..
maybe u know

that
i meant you.
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Becks.. quoted tis frm urs...

cuz it kinda moved me.

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Not Forever, But Long Enough
"First she smiled, and then suddenly she found herself fighting back tears. She turned away from him so that he wouldn't notice. It had something to do with her sense that nothing was permanent, nothing would last. Hearts stopped beating. People put guns to their chests. There was no one and nothing she could ever know well enough to make it stay. It had been one of her chief preoccupations during the last few years of her life: the notion that there was not enough time left for her to really get to know anyone. Most people would say it was ridiculous. She understood that. She was only in her mid-thirties, after all. But whenever she would come into contact with someone new, someone whose stories she didn't already know by heart, sooner or later that person would start talking about days gone by, and she would get the sick, saddening feeling that too much had already happened to him and it was far too late for her to ever catch up. How could she ever hope to know someone whose entire life up to the present was already a memory? For that memory, how could anyone hope to know her?"

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~kevin brockmeier

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a beauty isnt it..

it kinda spoke to me. somehow.

i shld be studyin..

but wat am i doing seriously..

i wanna cry. i so wanna cry.

~tas

when u told me..
i almost felt like i cant count..
or shld i say cant go on counting..
but when i reali got down to start..
i was pleasantly surprised.
happy how little things like tht made me smile.
its good i guess.
easily contented again.
almost like stupid some wld say.

i love it how easily i can smile like tht.
it makes life easier to bear, isnt it?
it juz makes me happy.
im reali glad with how things are now.
maybe not evrytink.
but its all i have now tht makes me feel its more than enuff alrdy..
dun reali wish for more. wldnt care for.
reali hope those i care for are happy too.
esp my darlings.

love to love and be loved.
cuz tht makes me happy.
~tas

thanks once again.
reali appreciate evrytink.
care concern and even the pig!
haha amazed by how u always make sucha grand entrance..
i hear u way before i even see ya...
but oh wells.. :) :) thank you!
love e present too!
~tas

WHAT HURTS THE MOST - RASCAL FLATTS
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I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house

That don’t bother me

I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out

I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while

Even though going on with you gone still upsets me

There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok

But that’s not what gets me

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What hurts the most

Was being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was tryin’ to do

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It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go

But I’m doin’

ItIt’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone

Still Harder

Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret

But I know if I could do it over

I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart

That I left unspoken

Not seeing that loving you

That’s what I was trying to do

i am narcissistic! :p
i can almost tell... :)

im taking a break frm studying now..
its fascinating how many breaks i need to take when i try to study..
and frm next sem onwards i totally need to start working..
i slack more when i have more time..
but worse is i study less when i have more time..
maybe its cuz i dun sense e urgency in needing to study since i have so much time on hand..
then again i need to set my priorities right..
i have been partying far too much..
sad but true.
watever tht means.

i love my frenz alot.
somehow i juz feel like saying tis..
love them more n more each time ..
im reali happy hanging out with e bunch of people im with now.
its relaxing.
no stress.
no burden.
a whole clique of ppl..
meeting ever so often..
it almost feels so routine.
love to be with these girls...
not forgetting e widjaya brothers..
they feel like so part of us.
tight is e word they use.
how cute.

im amazed at how much i talk nowadays..
i say almost evrytink tht doesnt make sense..
im becoming crazier by e day..
to e point i irritate myself talking too much..
but i juz need to let out.
i kinda miss my quiet self..
maybe its cuz i dun hav tht much opportunities to talk tht much
so i jump at any chance to talk.
james said tht girls in general juz talk alot.
i told him not girls. juz serena.
i almost seem like im talking abt myself outside myself.
duno if i make sense anymore..
but i guess talking here beats talkin to someone n irritating them..
soon evryone ard me will be begging me to stop talking.
i tink i shld stop myself before tht happens.
on another note..
its not juz me talking so much these days..
even andry who's usually so cool is doin it too!
then again. im goin back to my quiet self. im trying.
i like myself better quieter.

gosh i rambled on so much alrdy...
btw e song thts repeating on my iTunes now is "Stranger"
a song by KingKong Jane..
renquan n jianping's band..
i love it somehow.
very aptly written.
i meant e lyrics.
love e song.
esp tis line .. :) nice!
"stay for awhile cuz u make me smile"
~tas

i love my band! :)
e performance was sucha blast!!
enjoyed myself soo much!!
guess im so happy cuz we cld feel how tight we were..
e bond was irreplaceble! :)
and we all love each other!
i guess thts all tht matters!
will be posting up photos n stuff when i get them..
gotta go mug alrdy..
i've been a terribly bad student for far too long..
i almost hate myself for being sucha bum..
sooo lazy! well.. back to online lectures!! :)
~tas

i told a lie.
a white lie.
a sweet lie.
a lie to save myself some embarassment.
i know its wrong.
a lie nonetheless.
bad excuse.
~tas

e randomness of how things go now is making evrytink so complicated
simplicity is good.. why cant it be simple?
leave it and let it be :)
~tas

i want u to hold my hand even when i know which way to go..
i want u to talk to me even when u have nothing in particular to say..
i want u to ask me out so juz i can see you again..
i want u to smile for me cuz it makes my day..
i want u to sms even for no reason at all..
i want u to call me juz to say u wanna talk to me..
i want u to pamper me like a lil girl..
i want u to treat me like a silly lil girl even now tht im 21..
i want u to hold me close like e world world disappears ard us..
i want u to be there for me cuz ur e only one tht matters..
i want u to say u love me juz cuz ur heart says u do.
i want u bcuz i said so.
~tas

cedar darlings!! :)

the one person i cannot live without since pskool!

claudia n me at fsf :)