u ask me wat i want..
any wishes u can fulfil..
i know but im glad i dint say it out.
cuz i promised u alrdy.
im contented alrdy.
very happy alrdy.
wat more can i ask for..
but juz knowing u'll always be here for me alrdy made me smile..
thanks fs! :)
~tas

why do people do the very hurtful things knowing they hurt e person they care abt most..
why do people say the things they dun mean knowing it will only bring tears to both..
why do people juz say n do e things they regret.
always twelve midnight sharp.
`tas

captivated by ur smile :)
duno why but im in love with ur smile..
so sad u left... if only i can talk to u a lil while more :)
but im contented :) hope to see ya again someday somewhere sometime.
love ur smile still.

and you.
why why why why why why do u hafta leave on tht day....
on the 19th ????????????
u promised to come..
u promised u'll celebrate with me..
u promised.
oh wells.. u had no choice.
juz come back soon! :)
dun say sorry..
cuz i dun like to hear ppl say sorry to me..
thanks for always being there to hear me whine like a whiny pot.
thanks for always calling me silly.
thanks for always making me feel less lousy than i am.
thanks for always listening to me cry abt it.
thanks for always staying up.
thanks for always putting up with all e trouble i gave u..
thank u. ur always my favourite!

and you.
thanks for always realising my absence.
thanks for always asking despite knowing the answer.
thanks for caring.

and you.
thanks for always not forgetting me.
thanks for always asking me out.
thanks for always not having any expectations of me.
thanks for letting me be who i am with you.
thanks for being you.

and you. and you.
despite all ur vices.
u know i love ya!
will always :)
these wont change.
promise.

~tas

at esplanade to watch CM, pancakes n Mr H :) haha..

i love guitarists! im a rock guitar fan! :)

met yeli there.. havnt seen her in forever... :)

i ought to be studying.. or in fact.. supposed to be heading down to skool for a makeup lecture now.. but i dun have e car.. how to go to skool thts like in e most secluded part of tis island .. i decided to go shopping first and then decide.. reali wanna go catch a movie.. but at tis hour i duno who to call. shall shop till i drop ;p then decide if i shld start on my term paper.
wat a slacker. i know ;P
~tas

anyone wanna go catch a movie? :) like now?

"happy birthday" is a movie emo people shld never ever go near...
i havnt cried so much in so long before till i watched tht show..
its super touching... but i guess its juz too unrealistic..
such things dun happen in real life anymore.
maybe im juz plain cynical.. but its true..
its nice to once in awhile believe tht these things do happen..
to sink into trying to believe tht there are still beautiful things in tis world.
~tas

alot happier me? :) yes ur right! :)

been a terribly hectic week..
CNY doesnt feel like CNY..
but holidays sure fees like holidays!
haha.. im in a super slacker mood..
been goin out evry single day...
havnt been working for so long..
im seriously beginning to enjoy all e time i have..
i feel so spoilt..
n i play too much!

onli managed to finish my ppt when i came back at 6am tis morning..
before e presentation due in class e same morning..
so my efforts not sleeping were paid off..
cuz my prof was so pleased :)
and for a fact she isnt easy to please i tink i deserve a reward for myself! (play even more!!)
but i shall not do tis whole last minute thing again..
cuz i may not always be tis lucky..

i've been quite a happy girl..
ever since i decided to really let go..
tis time its for real.
im starting to find myself again!!!!!!!! :)
YAY YAY YAY!!!!
~tas

skate day fotos... super duper long ago.. :)

CNY... :)

happy valentines day evryone!!! :)
my day started out really happily..
with tis new thing i learnt..
haha.. reali kinda lame but...here goes..
happy is spelt H-A-P-P-Y :)
isnt it happy..
met my two fav girls.. xiu n pau :)
met e rest later at zouk...

well for once i guess i dunno if i shld say it made my day..
or caused me to emo the whole nite...
i guess though i wanted to see you so bad..
i dint know how to face u..
as much as i wanna be there but i know i cant..
the more i shun you..
e more u come back..
u know its not apologies i wanna hear..
its vday.. why vday..
wats the point of saying all tis now..
maybe its mind games you play...
i reali dunno.. since u left.. why did u come back..
why bother to make me stay..
why shld u still care how i feel..
why appear n disappear al over again..
i dunno wat u want.
i dunno wat u expect me to do.
quit messing with my head.
i wanna be able to talk to u like i used to.
i wanna be able to laugh n smile to you.
i wanna be able to go out shop n eat n have fun with u.
its so uncanny how u keep appearing when i dun wanna see ya..
keep running into you no matter where i went.
even in e jungle. ur e first.
i've had enuff.
dun play games anymore..
~tas

great minds think alike or fools seldom differ? :)
its funny how two extremes are often put together.
maybe not realy the poles apart kinda extreme..
but juz opposites. do opposites really attract?
~tas

HAppy birthday Zebra!!! :)
no matter how far apart..
u'll always be my dear fren..
~tas

i say and do the wackiest things sths..
seriously.. i dunno how well i know myself..
i do e silliest things ever! :)
funny i must say...
am made e butt of e jokes for e day..
and i can almost admit i kinda enjoy it..

i love to laugh..
i love to smile..
which do i prefer?
i duno! both maybe?
how to prefer both?
i duno!
im still high frm laughing so much..
it was fun :) yes it was.
~tas

my favourite little princess and a big squishy hug!! :)

blacked out totally juz now.
scared stiff..
scared myself silly..
dunno why cldnt see or hear anytink..
juz stunned.
need slp need slp neeed slp.
need to study.
need to stop stoning n waste time.
got sore red eyes too.
sad.
~tas

im accident prone :(
ran out to a pool of water on floor.
fell n broke my toenail.
freakin painful :(
~tas

im e world's muddlest-head girl!
i mistaken two different person for e same person!!
i seriously dunno why n wats wrong with me..
no wonder i see them ever too often..
see them in skool.. in town.. even at gatherings..
n they seem to be changing in n out of their clothes too many times..
gosh.. n i onli juz realise!! im sucha muddlehead!!
how can i be so silly n idiotic at e same time?
muz be all e stress.. im too stressed from being stress-free!
i need to study.
i need to study.
i need to study!
~tas

below is an extract off leon's blog.. sorta .. aft censoring his language.. love e way how aptly he puts it. makes me think abt how i always wanna say sth but never find the right words to describe it. i guess the only difference for me is that i dun want time to go faster. at least not for me. neither do i want it crawling. neither do i want time to standstill. lets juz say i dunno wat i want. dunno wats wrong with me.

~

Someone tell me how,

just how I could possibly make Valentines Day easier and more meaningful than this?

And time, can you please f****** fly faster?! You are like a fat ass walking through a small pathway that has no f****** consideration for the people behind? You're going so slowly and you're so f****** large, larger than life, that you can't possibly let the people the people behind you pass. Can you please hurry up? I'm trying to get to December.

~

unabashedly bawling my eyes out.

juz why does my eyes hurt so bad now?

~tas

Ally's e sweetest little darling ever.. no wonder we all love her so so much.. she muz have been so thrilled today!! her surprise party was wow.. muz have made her feel like a superstar!! :) happy birthday Ally!! :) love ya!

Ally's birthday surprise party!! :)

to tink i always respected u..
hold u in high regard no matter how u always treat me..
u really disappointed me so much tis time.
~tas

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BECKY!!!!!! :)

finally 21 eh... :) :) :)

hope ur day rocks!!!!! :)

~tas

was talking abt reali random things all day..
tink im becoming a lil crazy these days...
always uttering rubbish..
and becoming very mushy..
haha.. i bet pauline n jolvin will agree with me totally..
but oh wells.. all in e name of having fun!

finally met the girls yesterday again..
aft wat seemed like a duper long time ago..
had a real supper.. for once..
i dun usually have supper but tis once..
and i juz hafta say hot soup during cold weather is sucha luxury!
tom yam soup n mutton soup!! :)
warms e stomach and makes me feel so good..

anws we may be selling flowers for valetines day!!
anyone interested pls let me know..
delivery provided as well!!
support us alright?? :)

was talking to cherie abt little kids during lecture today..
realise i love little kids so much..
she was talking abt these who little girls..
sisters apparantly.. super duper sweet..
e sister was asking her mei-mei to sit on tis chair tht was supposedly for putting handphone..
e innocent little sister actualli took it put it on e floor n tried to sit on it!!
how adorable la.. she fumbled n lost balance n all..
goodnessly!! cutie pie!! :)

..reminds me of janice..
i kinda miss her.. n her little ponytails..
she's tis very pretty super cute little kid i knew..
from one of my long mrt rides frm e ulu island of boon lay to town..
she totally made my day..
played with her e whole ride..
she's one very curious little girl..
speaks very well for her age.. she's onli abt 3years old?
she literally made me take out evrytink i had in my bag to let her play..
n she has a very pretty mum too!
she was so adorable.. when she had to get off at her station..
she dint wanna leave..
even wanted me to go to her granny house with her..
oh wells.. duno why im even blogging abt tis..
ah-well.. need to go do my tutorial alrdy..
procrastinating like anytink...
im juz a lazy pig.. argh...
time to go.. tata! :)
~tas

i tink i look like tai tai in curls.. they all say that.. so sad.. i dun wanna be tai tai!! :(

with vanessa :)