came back today frm desaru..
guess i kinda learned alot abt many ppl on tis trip..
and i guess very often ppl are often not wat they appear to be like..
.. i keep hearing this phrase echo-ing time and again..
" .. its time to let go .. "
i guess i reali have alot to learn ..
xiu mentioned tis..
in life we have to take the bitter with the better..
i guess it kinda made alot of sense..
its true.. but yet sths we're juz not satisfied with tht..
sths i hear ppl question why?? why?? why?? ... rhetorically.. ..
or ask God why certain things happen the way they do...
i get frustrated when i hear them..
but yet sths i find myself questioning juz abt the same thing..
yet i know deep down inside tht we dun have a choice..
its all part of God's bigger and mightier plan..
sth tht probably we wont understd as yet..
had a few deep conversations with few persons the last few days....
i realised tht somehow somewhere out there the world's juz not all abt us..
not abt who we are, or wat we do or not do....
i totally agree tht when its time to move on .. i SHOULD..
i know i will have to eventually....
but yet i duno how to.. i cant bring myself to let go...
..wish i can look at the sky evrynite...
... to find more and more stars ebrytime i look into the sky... its the prettier part of life tht i want to experience more... and enjoy more..yet sths its juz not tht all easy...life is a rollercoaster...it has its peak and its downs.. the slow times and the holleringly fast times too..and when we least expect it,it comes to a standstill..guess i'll blog more abt the fun part of Desaru tmr..
oh i juz hafta add tis..
Dz looks weirdly un-dengzhi-ish with his new coolcut..
i totally cant get used to it...
took many photos..
will post up reali soon...
enjoyed it thoroughly!!
its physically draining though...
rite now im super exhausted...
juz came back frm Auntie Jackie's funeral wake..
feeling reali saddened..
i guess it reali affected many of us...
my warmest condolences to the family..
to
Pastor Hong,
Isacc
David
Daniel &
Benjamin
it breaks my heart to see the five beloved men in her life standing dere mourning... all of them look terribly upset..
esp lil benjamin.. though at his lil age.. was too sad to even lift his head up..
..while streams of ppl came to pay their last respect to her..
i pray tht e Lord wil be with them comforting them and encouraging them..
there are soo many questions running thru my mind rite now..
of which many still questions why things happen the way they do...
of which i often ask myself.. wld i be a happier person if i know the answer?
or will the answers actualli make me feel better?
it annoys me quite bit.. why i still ask why..
when so many times answers juz make me more upset..
like wat ppl say.. ignorance is bliss..
sths not knowing many things in life is often a wiser choice..
its time for me to go off now...
work as usual tmr.. how i wish i can Pon work ...
*sigh*
~tas