i crashed my car.
and yes i am crushed.
not literally.
maybe just sillily.
was so scared.
was totally not tinking.
or functioning.
i love my car.
my crossroad.
ironic it may sound.
and i dun want it to get hurt.
so disappointed with myself.
never would have been so careless reckless & stupid.
was scared to death though.
wldnt have known wat to do.
besides crying n crying.
typical.

i wanted to leave.
to go away for awhile.
just to get a breather.
i tink i need to soon.
i want to and i will.

time and again i go in a bout of this drama.
a vicious cycle.

oh wells, lifehouse concert soon.
gonna be busy busy busy.
so excited abt the press conference.
gonna meet lifehouse in person!!!! :)
how awesome is that. thx chris.
wanna meet daughtry!

all e assignments are getting me down.
presentations are all coming up.
im hard pressed for time.
no time to sleep.
so much to whine.
no more whine sponge.
i gotta be independent.

met mae.
and i realise so many things abt myself.
like hong always say, im a dumbass.
not in a dumbass way. but like a dumdum way.
for e hundred and one hundred gazillionth time.
im headed for a no-way street.
multiple repeats at a no-way end.
plain nothingness.

i wanna be a wedding planner.
you wanna get married?
LOL. i love weddings. dun you?
i realise frm ann, i love to gush.
haha whine too.

~tas

i walked out on myself.

.

i can believe how something so minor can juz affect me so much.

ever so often i tink i cant even understand myself.

im so tired of wishing waiting wondering....

juz wat i can do to make things right again..

all this time i figure if i could pretend its not there..

all e anxiety and uncertainty will go away.

but ultimately i am running away frm everything i know.

cuz the truth is i dun tink i know anymore.

being sick gave me an excuse to hide away frm everyone in e world.

though i know how much it hurts, but maybe if i pretend it longer..

it will all go away. it will fade away. cire.

What if -

Here I stand alone
With this weight upon my heart
And it will not go away
In my head I keep on looking back
Right back to the start
Wondering what it was that made you change
Well I tried, But I had to draw the line
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know

Many roads to take
Some to joy
Some to heart-ache
Anyone can lose their way
And if I said that we could turn it back
Right back to the start
Would you take the chance and make the change
Do you think how it would have been sometimes
Do you pray that I'd never left your side

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know
If only we could turn the hands of time
If I could take you back would you still be mine
'Cos I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind

What if I had never walked away
'Cos I still love you more than I can say
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know
We'll never know


anyone has this song can send me pls?
~tas