Dun ask why.

Yvone's birthday was super fun!!
went to fish & co the glasshouse for dinner...
went KTV-ing at cine...
sang silly songs n did stupid things...
haha... we even sang backstreetboys & spice girls!!
can u believe that???
haha.. and we went to blue stars too..
its e first time i've been there..
probably cuz i dun have a boyfriend..
thts why...
haha.. ppl go there to make out...
how funny la..
i went there making so much noise..
muz have scared everyone..
haha.. im sucha noisy pok!
haha.. irritaing..
oh well.. cut cake sing song..
made a din!! :)
BUT it was super fun!!
kinda got reminded of Edwin again..
but oh well.. :)
life goes on...
i miss it though..
~tas

sad.
~tas

thank you pighead for e door-to-door..
japanese food delivery..
my life-saver...
but the portion is huge....
cant finish!!!
heheh..
but oh well.. for once.. it nice..
maybe it cuz i've been starving for almost 2days..
almost become a hungry ghost..
wld have died if u tu longer...
ooh well.. im going back to eating... :)
~tas

after a goodnites slp i feel totally so so so much better...
fell in a reali deep slp..
though i wake up still feeling tired...
i guess it e best i can manage.. :)
haha.. oh well.. goin to celebrate bong's birthday today...
i miss them.. havnt met them in ages...
esp bong.. !! :)
hope it'll be reali fun tonight...
i miss hanging out.. ;P
now its back to e books else i reali cannot make it..
i meant e grades wont make it.. :P
~tas

i finally slept.. and for quite a long time..
had the most hilarious dream ever...
its so absurd that i can even remember it till now so vividly..
i am not exactly on v good terms with my roomie..
and she's been showing signs of not liking me to do certain things...
in the room like talk on the fone..
staying up late..
any form of noise..
and in my dream..
in order to spite me she bought alot of animals intoour room..
animals like an owl, an eagle, a dog, a rabbit, a pair of twin fox and one more weird animal i duno wat it was..
the owl flew all ard e room making the hooting sound..
the dog ran out of e cage...
the eagle dropped its beak..
the rabbit was running on the "treadmill" thing nonstop..
the twin foxes were playin n fighting...
it was like a zoo literally...
and in the dream i was terrified by animals..
but as many of u know ever since young my brother used to keep all sorts of animals..
including snakes iguana crocodile dog guinea pig .. juz name it la..
so in e end i was playin w e animals so happily she got hopping mad..
it was super funny..
i woke up tis morning feeling quite weird cuz all e animals were gone..
then did i realise it was juz a dream..
*hehe* it was e weirdest and out of my wildest dreams..
but it totally cracked me up..
thts all for e dream of the day... hehe...
~tas

Have you ever loved someone...
juz so quietly...
e person doesnt know...
and doesnt hafta know at all..
when the person does...
you feel tht u cant love the person again...
Life is a paradox ...
its bitter and its sweet...
its just a mixture tht makes it all so unique.....
painfull yet its all worth it..
~tas

theres no denying that evryone has the priviledge to do e things they want to..
say the things they feel like..
and be with e ones they enjoy being with..
i have no qualms abt ppl hanging out with anyone ...
i cant object u seeing anyone else either..
guess its juz tht i cant std seeing it happen...
it may be hard..
but im juz gonna keep my distance..
hopefully e next time i see u..
if i still wld..
things will be better.. :)
and tht i can soon be indifferent abt all thts becoming reality..
to be nonchalant abt tis whole issue.
i reali hope so.
~tas

its suffocating..
i keep lying to myself...
well i found out the truth today..
the truth tht i kept hiding to deceive myself..
knowing tht i was so silly...
all along i shld have known right from the start..
i choose to ignore the obvious..
clinging on to tht sth tht isnt there anymore..
not being able to slp..
unable to get a grip..
an ultimate loser of e century...
haha... so much for enjoyin my week..
it has to be spoilt by my own stupidity..
i shldnt have been so naive..
i now know the truth..
but wat am i going to do?
pretend again??
or juz smile n keep smiling..
that way it makes no difference..
smile.
~tas

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

had a silly week..
doing silly things
and having stupid fun..
dun understd wat i mean when i say that but..
its juz started raining here..
duno why but rain gives me a very warm feeling..
the feeling of being loved...
its contradicting i know..
cuz its cold outside when in its rainin..
but somehow.. theres warmth..
juz like the feeling of christmas in winter..
silly me.. thinking n blogging nonsense when i know i have so much to study...
duno why but for once i have a very very happy week...
stressful but happy...
met up with quite alot of frenz..
had supper quite often..
had my fav dim sum n soya beancurd!
went out with my fav girlfrenz..
talked to alot more ppl in hall...
guess its bcuz i was sick for a period of time..
n tht point of time i felt so lonely..
all alone most of the time..
and now a sudden twist of situation...
overflooded with soo many real good company.. :)
esp xiujuan pauline and vanessa!!
plus chua wenlong pighead denice and loy!'
there were especially many birthdays celebrated too..
first started out with Charlene's and my brother's 21st birthday..
then came antor's oct babies..
toro pighead tiffany weihao kelvin & destiny..
had sooo much fun!!
happy happy happy.... :)
~tas

LALA... she cheered me up soo much..
havnt had a nice chat with anyone in ages....
thanks babe! :)
hope ur doing fine over at US..
takekare ya...
keep smiling...
n stay as pretty as the finger girl..!! :)
~tas

sometimes i wonder juz wat is so wrong with me..?
weakness in me.
~i know i still love you~
~tas

thanks angela..
u made me smile! :)
wanted to blog longer but got my term assignment due today!
~tas

damn crap day...
stomach hurts..
did tremendously stupid things...
got snubbed..
rushed here n dere like some mad woman..
feel super sick now...
juz gonna stone for as long as i can...
get rid of all the things tht r botherin me...
dun wanna think or bother abt anything anymore...
the only good thing was tht i met jingbei today ..
gotta noe a nice girl.. :)
~tas

i have this very uneasy feeling...duno why is it whenever i watch tv or some show..though i know its juz a show..but it always seem to hit me so hard i really duno watta do..it dampens me to watch sad romantic shows when e lead actor n actress dun get together..i love happy endings..i feel sad..
i wanna find a bf..someone i like n like me too..is it too much to ask? it seems tht evryone else can find someone.. why not me..when i see happy couples..i feel so envious..when will it be my turn..i've been waiting all my life for my Mr Right to appear...walloing in self pity yet i have to put up a front like i dint kare abt a thing in the world..does anyone know how i feel??no.no one does.

life got cold...now.. many years ago...we're running out of time..im sinking on e line..
lying on e brink of gettin thrown off course...
~tas

i forgot to mention one impt person...
WENDY... i wanna say i miss you too....alot!!
miss all e times we hung out.. talk n stuff...
come back soooon okie? :)
life is miserable for me now..
many things happened recently...
not convenient to blog..
catch up soon ok..
now exams coming.. very stressed...
very busy... hopefully things will get better...
~tas

i have cramps...
bad bad cramps all day alrdy...
well luckily i ended skool for the week alrdy..
but a few term assignments due soon..
the only thing interesting tis week is tht i have TWO quizes!!
is tht happening or wat??
oh and btw on a lighter note..
Johnathan Marshall tried to demonstrate Hypnosis to us during lecture..
cherie ask me go down..
went to volunteer together..
BUT it dint work on me.......!!!! arh...
im tired.. gonna take a nap now..
goodnite world!
~tas

happy 19..
though i reallli duno if u pretended u clean forgot abt it or wat..
tis is probably e last im saying to u...
whether or not u respond its up to u..
u can choice to feign ignorant its fine with me..
takekare...
~tas

For the first time in a very very long time..
my com can open blogger..
haha.. my routine blog entry will be back..
oh well.. tht is unless it doesnt break down again..
lousy computer!!

there are juz too many people i take for granted in my life..
been feeling realli sick e last few days..
kinda miss some people in my life..
some of the friends who mean so so much to me..
people who are exceptionally nice and special to me...
somehow i duno if its cuz i fail to keep in touch or tht i juz do not put in enuff effort into the friendship...
xiujuan, angela, pauline, vanessa, hilda, genevieve, debra, ann, bong, angeline, cheryl...
xin, council and ppl i grew up with in BBTC....
i miss you all..
miss all the times we went out..
the memories..
in Skool.. in church..
those were the days..

i have to study hard now..
dun wanna let my daddy mummy down..
then i can thoruoghly enjoy my hols...
feeling so miserable..
so alone..
life is so different now in uni..
i miss SAJC..
e times in klass with e wonderful penguin, e bimbo and vic!
first 3 mths with A21.. esp ann debs n bong..
not forgettin perry praba coffee lewis and many many more...
wish i can turn back time.. :(
~tas

juz saw the doc..
viral infection or sth..
hurting my poor stomach like crazy...
not feeeling any better now...
but im in skool alrdy..
miss the morning lecture...
the doc was impossible..
he muz hav thot tht all i wanted was an MC..
i was in the doc for merely a min..
and the question he asked e loudest was..
" so u neeed an MC..?? "
he was stunned when i said i dint need one..
he asked me repeatedly like i dint hear correctly..
wat an idiot...
he muz have thot i was faking it..
well so i said loud n clear tht i dint need one at all..
cuz im goin for my lessons anw...
well.. so i hafta take lotsa medicine now...
goin back to hostel now..
juz zapped my lecture notes..
oh well.. will rush back to hall n see if i can get my biz law done..
cuz i hav been slpin e entirely day yest.. since saturday nite..
till tis morn..
stomach hurts man..
still gotta go SAO to pay my bills before i go back to hall...
sigh... ;(
somebody save me pls..
~tas

juz ended Biz Law Lecture...
bored to death...
talked to Jieru thruout the whole lect...
now waiting for my final tutorial..
it starts at 430..
crazy man...
my whole day was so wasted...
skipped maths lect today..
wont make a Difference if i went or not cuz the lecturer was beyond hope..
dun understd a single thing he utters..
crap... i feel so *argh!!*
duno why...
maybe cuz of the whole incident...
talked abt the whole issue...
felt alot better alrdy..
Ed's not exactly e best topic of all to talk abt..
talking abt it made me feel better n worse at the same time..
actualli duno wat exactly im blabbering..
nonsense.... duno if i shld meet xiu pau chrys tonite or not..
feeling so tired...
830am tuts tml..
dinner with chua and denice later..
Productions meeting at 9pm tonite...
its all killing me...
im still stressed out over the whole Maths thing...
why dun i understd anytink at all???
*sobz* *cries* *wails* *whines*
someone save me...
(Bong.. seems like i cant even save myself anymore....)
theres the Amore thing on Saturday...
sigh.. i hafta go for it...
but im not up to it...

have been quite diligently doing my tutorials lately..
haha.. studying in the reading room quite alot now too...
the only Problem is math...
oh well.. gotta jiayou .. dun wanna "da bao" in first sem..
i must study hard!!

another happy thing...!!
i saw ben like soooo many times tis week..
haha.. cheap thrill i know.. but who kares... :o
~ciao!
~tas

in skool now...
dad drove me in today..
else i wld hafta take the bus n mrt..
dread it soo much..
gonna go for psychology klass in juz abit..
but im so gonna slp inside..
saw charlotte on my way in..
haha.. dint expect to talk to her..
cuz i dun even know her in sa..
now we're like sudden friends who can talk n laugh..
juz printed my notes in free access lab..
waited for tis girl for so long..
gosh.. oh well..
gotta go for lecture alrdy...
hafta last till 6 today..
then have hocky till.. ermm maybe 9?
haha... anw i have new sheets..
pretty nice coloured bedsheets...
funky one..
shall post some fotos of my hostel room..
maybe later tonite when i get back or tmr aft my half day klass..
jingle is here..cherie muz be leaving soon..
me gotta run now too..
bye girl..
bye com..
:)
~tas

its been a traumatic week for my aunt's family...
uncle's father passed on yest..
uncle got into an accident tis morning..
it was so serious the front of the whole car was smashed so badly...
but lucky thing both my uncle n little cousin did not suffer any serious injury...
i heard tht if my uncle swerved away a few seconds later the other car wld have crashed rite into my cousin... it wld have been so terrible...
Thank God..
wats worse is tht my aunt got so scared she cried so much i was so worried for her...
n she's alrdy 8 months pregnant...
gosh...oh well.. luckily things are better now..

anw im not going back hostel tonite...
i miss my own bed...haha..
one more nite..
then i'll hafta fly to skool early tmr morning for lecture...

had cell grp at darren's hse today...
cool hse with cool tv...
haha.. wish i can have one like tht in my room too..
haha..but im dreaming...

i havnt been blogging v much the last duno how long..
but i dun intend to update those anymore..
seems like theres no point anyways...
all i can say is tht its been realli hectic n full of emotional ups n downs..
will post more photos when i get back..
now its tv time.. n slp...
gosh heck my hw la...
though i know i seriously need to study...
sigh.00.
for now i shall stop here...
tudos!
~tas

Yay... Xiu came to chomp chomp to eat supper with me..
then pau n her came over to my place to chill...
watched house...
quite nice...
but the only thing was tht im not interested in medical shows...
fell aslp a few times...
too tired..
had too lil slp all week...
dying.. of fatigue....
oh well.. slping time...
i hear my bed calling me...
goodnite ...
~tas

i passed my final thoery today...
my TP is schedules on 16 December..
quite a long time frm now..
but oh well...
by then my exams wld be officially over!!
i cant wait...
haha...
havnt been blogging in eon years...
gosh... thts cuz my stupid irritating computer in hostel cant blog...
so needless to say...
im at home now..
finally...
home sweet home...
lazed my day away watchin dvds and The OC season 3!!
well i know i shld be studying...
but really cant help it...
haha...
tried to slp tooo...
but was awaken by umpteen phonecalls n smses..
shld have juz offed my phone..
oh well.. i love home...
actualli i love my aircon..
haha..meeting xiu pau n bella soon...
better get goin or i'll be late..
ciaoz...
~tas