cuz there's sth in the way u look at me.
make me believe there's nth in tis world i cant be.

thanks for evrytink.
though it was short it was good.
as long as it was good while it lasted.
really glad. :)
~tas

met up with ann n debra for lunch today..
it was amazing :)
been forever since i last seen them both..
ann's back for the holiday's frm hongkong..
before i know it she's gonna fly back again..
*sad sad sad*
it was good juz sitting down over lunch and catch up n stuff..
makes me feel like i've gone back to e good ol' days..
three muzketeers.. :) back in action ..
took a whole lotta fotos..
all in ann's camera.. pls upload them n send to me soon yeah..
love ya all babes! :)
~tas

george's hse party.. :) HOHOHO II

i miss the days..
e chill out times..
had a reali great time with xiu on xmas eve..
went to bishan .. totally makes it feel like ol times..
sat down juz talkin n while-ing the time away..
feels reali good.. :)
at tht moment i recalled wat andry said..
realise i do not want tht to happen..
kinda made me feel scared.
things happened.
though i may say its not within my control.
but i never choose for things to happen tht way..
to lose e people who matter to me.
i've lost too many ppl who mean so much to me..
people who matter to me.
e very people i treasure..
i dun wanna drift away..
make me believe there's nth in the world i can do abt it.
maybe i'll let go.
~tas

did i ever mention???
i love these girls soo much !!
the very people i cannot live without.. :)
merry christmas babes!!
and to evryone too!!
MERRY CHRISTMAS!! :)


juz wanna say..
im sorry..
i know sometimes i mess up..
and i know i mess up reali bad tis time..
u can stay mad at me..
guess i owe u an apology..
"i'm sorry"
~tas

i said i'll always be e same..
but am i ?

someone once told me..
that im the lead actress in my life..
life is one drama tht i can write the script..
direct the show..
be a success or mess up..
its up to me to decide..
why do i feel tht i've been a sidekick all these while..
tht im not playing the leading role..
but juz a bystander..
looking on in
~tas
;p

its been a crazy month..

i cant quite put to words how im feeling..

i've been so messed up..

not gonna elaborate.

its been real good partying..

but somehow i feel lack.
confused.

enjoyed though.

merry christmas folks :)
-tas

i'll still be the same. i promise.

:)

~tas

posting some long overdue fotos...
juz to have a look at wat i've been up to till now..
too lazy to blog.. next time yeah! :)

tis is quite a blur foto of e statue tht accompanied us at work for e past few months..

Desmond.. supposedly acting cute.. exams stress..

kiyo... my dear lil boy... how adorable!

siewying n me at work.. nokia.. slacking again.. :)

david.. long time friend.. taken at rach's 21st bday..

PSF! with a crazy hairstyle then..

Kerrie koh.. super blur foto.. kerrie on her diamond white Vespa..!!

an extremely scary foto of me.. taken b4 e fotoshoot..

Paul.. i have no idea wat tht expression is trying to show..

Tim yun.. our guest of e day! :)

Adam.me. service crew.. swapped jobs.. so much more fun being service crew!

my dear nicole.. my lil darling.. she is soo ADORABLE!

finally gotta carry her !! she's sucha princess..

emo kid.. haha i know dun look like.. but oh wells.. ;P

shaun n me.. he's my other narcissis pal.. a cam whore too!!

miss how pq dressed daintily.. but act silly again!

Kelly as Jean Gray.. during the screening of xmen..

me n my roomie shopping!

kenneth.. why do u always hafta make me look so short????!

okay.. n thts me .. saying bye for now...!! :) tata!
~tas

Pauline Lili me n Xiu!! :) thank God for these girls.. not forgetting Chrys e one who took tis pic n e one who drove us!! :) :) love them all!! :)

life is no longer pretty..
its messy messy n totally broken..
it makes no sense anymore..
e stars dun seem to guide me anymore..
blurry mess ahead..
i juz wanna clearer path to move forward to..
im so exhausted.
~tas

Becky... i dreamt of you!!! :)
haha.. duno why.. maybe i miss you..
haha..u muz have been in my thoughts too much :p
weird dream though.. but kinda cute..
superman was in it too.. like wats new..
haha..

wasted my day slacking doing nothing at all..
shopped.. but ended up buying stuff for my brother instead..
tis gorgeous pair of nike sneakers.. for his xmas present...
plus his new haircut n hair colour...
wat an expensive xmas present!
i'll be so broke by e time xmas comes..

was forced to play mj with my grandma..
lost so much money in e end..
im not onli not interested im oso terribly bad at e game!
waste of time effort money n energy..
seriously... i hate to play mj... argh...!!
why do people actually enjoy it! :(

sadly life seems so meaningless now..
trying to kill time doing nonsense...
keeping myself occupied..
i wanna start work alrdy...
tmr can work n go out~! *Yay!!*

im gonna slp now...
guess tis is good as well..
faster to forget.
~tas

holidays are here..
somehow i feel tht before i know it it'll be all over..
i mean Christmas.
it'll come n it'll go..
so fast.

so many things to do..
yet so lil time..
i wanna buy so many things..
i need to get so many presents..
not forgeting i need to work to get e money to do those.
work to pay.

sometimes i wonder.
why do i even bother.
at all.

my hair feels so damaged i decided to cut off a large part of it cuz it feels so bad..
feels so short now.. saddened...
did the treatment too... feels a whole lot better now..
sure hope the treatment lasts..

Tuckshop by Sticky Rice is gonna open soon..
n i was invited back to work..
dint wanna take it cuz it pays so bad..
but agreed anyways..
still doing events.
n Nokia screwed up my schedule so bad..
argh.. guess im juz gonna slack at Tuckshop..
at least there's Thomas there :)
and its near Bobby's..
for some reason i feel entirely silly.
oh wells, all in e name of keeping myself occupied.
im reali quite tired of feeling down n out.
bought him his fav chocolates today.
utter foolishness.

worked at caltex house for nokia the other day..
met quite a few cute ppl..
nice colleagues..
n some surveyor who reminds me so much of zhong.
we sat down n talked and i realise e striking resemblance wasnt juz e look but also e similar way they speak n carry themselves..
was talking to zhong as well n i realised he matured alot..
its not tht zhong isnt matured before..
but he never seem to fail to amaze me with these conversations..
casual conversations but nevertheless show his intellectual being..
he's one deep one.. reali enjoy talking to him..
n i simply love his smile! :) my all time fav-est smiler! :)
fell in love with his smile right frm e first day i knew him..

anyways.. had a chalet on friday..
was my dear PAULINE's birthday...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE!!!!!!!!!
Happy 20th!! finally hit the BIG TWO...
love ya !!!!! :) :)
sorry babe i was sucha mess..
i hope it was all good for u still!!!

feeling so tired now.. wanna go slack n slp..
shall watch show first..
tata~
~tas

fasinating things i discovered when i got home aft wat feels like forever since i last came home..

1. they dun want me anymore.. they threw away my toothbrush..
2. e new maid for some reasons LOVES to do hsework n cannot stop..so my room is totally neat!
3. home has so much good food!!
4. someone literally moved into my room occupying it e whole time i wasnt in!
5. he dun wanna return me money but spend on so much branded clothes instead! gnd!
6. i DIED. actualli it e "me" version of e baby chinchilla.. prada gave birth to 3 babies n e "me" one DIED. sad.
7.home makes me feel so emo..
8. despite it all i love to be home i miss home!! :) :)
~tas