i dreamt of you again last nite..
tis time it feels so real..
as if u were tis close to me..
u were wearing ur fav color..
a red polo tee..
e first time u appeared in my hall..

been studying really hard in skool..
in study room evryday..
i really need to do well...
i wanna get my A's..
i dun want mediocre results..
i feel utterly stupid cuz evryone seems so smart...
mainly people like danny qixiang n zhizong..
they make me feel super lousy..
maybe im juz me..
juz passing shld never be on my agenda...
but it seems to me tht i've been happy with it all these while..
i need to work hard... and i mean like real hard..
putting in real effort...
another 2more papers...
i totally cannot wait for it to be over!
AHHhh..

goin for skate day tmr...
hopefully i can finish studying by today..
i need discipline..
i shall not cont blogging..

where are you Christmas??
looking forward to Christmas!! :)
wat u want for Christmas?? :)

~tas

had a terribly bad paper today...
wanted to cry when i came out..
cuz i seriously do not know how to do evrytink...
felt like an idiot totally...

but today the lightbulb wasnt energy saving...
i transformed..
instead it can convert bad energy to good energy!!
isnt it good..??
was in super good mood aft tht somehow..
no reason why..
nth happened..
guess it muz be e cold water... :)

i duno juz wat is it..
temperament..
fluctuations..
juz horrendous..
changed.
evrytink's different.
hurts.
~tas

currently listening to some old songs tht i dint tink was nice in e past..
backstreet boys songs.. im surprised myself..
duno how bsb songs wld appeal to me now.. haha..
e backstreet boys black n blue album..
songs like "its true" n "how did i fall in love with you" "incomplete"
another band i really like now is Hinder..
"lips of an angel" n "better than me" are my favourites now!!
e lyrics are really meaningful..

wat can i do to make you mine
fallen so hard so fast this time
everytink's changed
wat did i say wat did i do
how did i fall in love with you

i hear your voice and i start to tremble
brings back the child tht i resemble
i cannot pretend tht we can still be friends
its anybody's guess..
i try to go on like i never knew you.
im awake but my world is half aslp
without you im only gonna be incomplete
i pray for tis heart to be unbroken

remember when
best of friends.
we understd each other when
now days apart
the night is long
dunno wat to say
never meant to feel this way
with you
with you i wanna spend the rest of my life.

gotta whisper cuz i cant be too loud
its really good to hear your voice whisper my name it sounds so sweet.
coming frm e lips of an angel. hearing those words it makes me weak.

this time im letting go.
the wheels juz keep on turning
i dunno which way im goin
i duno wat have i become.

empty spaces fill me up with hope.
distant faces with no place left to go.
without you within me.
i cant find no where.
where im going. its anybody's guess.
i tried to go on like i never knew you.
im awake but my world is half aslp.
i pray for this heart to be unbroken.
but without u all im gonna be is incomplete
im swimming in an ocean all alone.

and i tink u shld know this..
u deserve much better than me.


Superman is gone.
~tas

Happy birthday SIEW!! once again...
had a wonderful time yesterday!
had dinner with Siew, Pauline, Lily & Chrystle at Prego..
rushed down asap aft my paper..
they were the sweetest..
waited for me till i came before they started...
wine n dine.. it was so nice...
its been a super long time since i had tht kinda pleasant dinner feel..
totally stress-free..!! it feels really good.
they reserved a table at phuture aft tht..
somehow i really feel duper loved...
no matter how long i havnt been ard much..
i am still considered part of tis really sweet grp..
was extremely tired frm exams though..
so sat quietly listening to their conversation...
it was e cute taitai style conversations..
discussing holiday birthdays & outing plans..
i loved e whole atmosphere..
like it was an evryday thing..
i hope tis friendship will last forever..
even when we all grown-up.. married.. working..
times like these i'll never forget.. :)
juz add smiles to my face when i tink abt them..
e sweet sweet kinda smile tht makes u feel life isnt tht sad aft all :)
thank you you all.. Xiujuan Pauline Lily Chrys!!
i love you all!!

fate never fails to play such silly tricks on me..
coincidental as it seems..
now i know.
our fate ends here.
careful wat u wish for sometimes.
i got wat i wished for but in a really unexpected way..
definitely not e way i dreamed it.
but it was good to finally see you again.
~tas

if you love sth, let it go.
if its comes back, its yours.
if it doesnt, it never reali was in e first place.

thank you. it means a world to me.
for fear i might forget you one day.
now i gotta learn to forget you.
not of e memories you left me.
not e something i meant to u once.
the love of my heart slowly fades.
this time im letting go.
~tas

This is supposed to be up only on 15nov..
but due to the one terribly annoying thing called EXAMS..
this will be put up earlier than expected..
anyhows..

tis is a tribute to my one dear dear dear friend...
someone whom i know will be a dear friend of mine..
.. for a very very very long time to come..

i knew her in sajc ...
someone i dint tink i'd even talk to very much..
someone who seems so full of herself..
beautiful as she may be...
there was something abt her..
something tht sent people ard her e wrong kinda vibes..
the kinda vibes tht make her seem somewhat very high up there..
someone not easily approachable..
someone whom i thot of who had a huge ego n attitude problem...

BUT guess wat?
my initial impression of her was WRONG ..
way beyond wrong...

she's juz one who takes a lil more time to open up..
someone who seems indifferent..
yet deep down inside..
she's one reali sweet girl :)
a darling to be with..
(tht is when she doesnt flare up or is in a foul mood)
sometimes like a kid..
sometimes like a tai tai..
sometimes like a dainty lady..
sometimes like a spoilt brat...
theres juz so many sides of her..
she's classy pretty n sophisticated..
sometimes making me feel really inferior beside her..
cuz she steals away all e attention.. be it hunks or babes..
but im ever so proud to have a gorgeous friend like her..

Stinky.. her irreplaceable darling..
thru Stinky.. i see e other side of her..
the sweet.. the childish.. soft n simple girl..
tht innoncence in her eyes when she gets so obsessed with Stinky..
the cute lovable girl tht evryone will adore..
she's one girl who never fails to surprise me..

i duno why but somehow i never fail to piss her off...
irritate her with my stupidity and clumsiness..
who'd have imagined tht aft countless times we quarrelled.. had conflicts.. arguments.. and disagreements...
at the end of e day.. all the animosity will disappear with e wind..
no remnants of bad blood... most is slpt over n forgotten..
she's someone i know i'll always love n care for..
someone no matter wat happens..
will always be regarded as someone i hold dearly and keep reali close to in my heart...
for reasons i duno howta explain.. i love love tis girl!! :)

tis is beginning to sound somewhat mushy n gross...
better stop before i sound les..
anyways... to my dear friend... !!!

HappY BiRthDaY XIUJUAN!!!
hope u have a fabulous 20th birthday..
love ya girl!! :)

P.s. sorry the photos so ugly.. siew tinks its ugly.. sorry siew.. cant find prettier photos.. i have a limited collection.. and im ugly so no choice.. make e photos so ugly.. sorry the photos dun do you justice.. but bear with it okay?? next time i get prettier photos of you okay?? :) :) :)

~tas

WARNING! FLOOD OF FOTOS WILL BE posted..
so bear with it.. ;P

photos taken over the years.. :)







the good times and the bad...
the smiles and the crazy faces...
the stupid things we do and the silly poses..

gorgeous isnt she?? :)

the nonsense we did...
being tourists for e day...
chomp chomp suppers...










all these years... :)
the jc times..
aft jc..
uni..
..

the trouble with love is.. it can tear u up inside..
amazing love.
you're the pill i need to help me carry on..
i wanna see you..
even if its frm afar...
the love of my heart slowly fades..
for fear i may forget you one day..
~tas

with faith like a child..
wat does it mean to have childlike heart...??
wat does it mean to have faith?
darren says we have to know our object of faith..
not have blind faith..

somehow it all seems so blur to me now..
not tht im questioning my faith at all..
rather.. its the people ard me who make me feel like losing hope..
not in GOd but in friendships relationships kinship watever else there is..
actualli maybe im juz feeling stressed out by exams...
cant reali tink straight..
shall shelf tis topic altogether...

went for cell today n celebrated Darren's birthday..
was indeed a super rush rush for me..
went thru so much to get evrytink.. e presents cake n all..
hope u like ur presents frm unleaven bread!!
evry single item! :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!

went to Zouk's flea n easy market thing..
its my very first time there!!
thanks K !! wldnt be there if not for u...
then again.. so much for being in e exams season...
oh wells.. wasnt too bad actualli..
i bought a brand new addidas jacket...
the same titan lea limited edition one as my shoes!!
simply love it..!! now i have matching shoes n jacket!!
bought some other random stuff oso..
met soooooo many ppl there...
all e familiar faces once again...
its reali nice to see evryone all in e flea mkt spirit!!

:) time to study mug stone n be hardworking!! tataz!
~tas

Fruit of the spirit is love joy peace patience kindness goodness faithfullness and self-control.
Galatians 5:22

Love is patient; Love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trust, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
Faith, Hope and Love.
But the greatest of these is Love.
1 Corinthians 13:4

these verses came to my mind..
both of them are verses most of us know or wld have heard of..
things of the world often make us insensitive to the voice of the Holy Spirit.
we somehow forget the basics. the simple life.
the very reason why we are living and breathing.
~tas

Bong's birthday... :)

i wanna ride a carousel...
the kind with pretty horses like in fairytales..
where a prince and princess ride on happily ever after..
the dreamlike illusion as if a fantasy..
sadly my carousel foto cant be seen.. argh..

Romeo's first love was Juliet but Roseline..
but how quickly tht love was forgotten..
yet Romeo and Juliet's love story live on forever..
sweet and sad..

R&J has always been one of my fav stories so far..
but good things never did last...

anyways.. now i totally look like an ah lian..
my hair is bleahed in so many colours.. its colorful!
did it for some hair competition photoshoot..
the fotos totally do not look like me..
but sadly i cant post the fotos up...
they are not allowed to be published anywhere before the results of the com is announced..
juz in case i get into trouble..
had a presentation today..
n somehow looking like a teenage delinquent dint help very much..
since it was a debate style ppt tht requires professionalism..
well heck it.. it over...
thank God our grp did quite well !!
prof said she wanted to use our presentation recording to be used as a model video..
im juz glad its all over..
e ppt totally drained me of evry ounce of energy i had in me..
im so tired now i totally need slp..
the lack of it made me look no different frm a panda now..
am off to get a power nap !! :)
byebye!
~tas

some fotos frm stomp taken during velvet anniversary..
the carousel foto(click) ..
and me to bored so playing with camera tricks.. :)

my dear lil godbro.. :) sucha darling right???

my lil god sis... love her.. sweetest lil darling.. :) seeya soon babe.. :)

JO n me!!!!!!