SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO EMOO!
damnit. three weeks.
its juz watever is left of e last bit of you.
driving me crazy somehow.
it hurts real bad.
super emo.
~tas

wat it is about love that makes u feel so stupid?
mindless helpless nothingness.
silliness.
~tas

im looking for love this time.
sounding hopeful but its making me cry.
try not to ask why.
this thing abt love is quite a mystery.
love is always blinded when its never right.
going around in circles.
being made a spot.
is it true wat they've been saying?
is it the truth?
or is it only gossip?
it wasnt meant to be no harm.
everything's changed and its no longer the same.
i need some inspiration.
it not a call for celebration
but i's want an excuse
juz to not make me cry.
be happy even so for a day more.
~tas

its messing my mind.
its screwing me up.
im messing myself up.
enuff enuff enuff enuff.
~tas

this is not wat i do.
im getting more n more confused.
and it seems to only getting worse.
i dun wanna mess evrytink up.
maybe i dun wanna learn how to face it.
~tas

somehow i have super short fuse now.
dun ask me why.
i realised i changed so much these pass few months.
so many things have changed in the process.
i dun like me now.
roberts say i have to always be positive.
but it isnt like wat it seems anymore.
he says it can only get better.
well, its true evryone goes thru a bad time.
everyone goes thru a rough patch.
and i will get over it too.
i've had enuff of it.
i hate it when she tells me how to live my life when she isnt setting an example herself.
all she does is throw tantrums.
and when she's at it, she gives me so much nonsense,
and evryone cannot take it too.
dad will only let it out on me.
i cannot take it.
DUN VENT ON ME.
im not a dustbin!
its up to my neck alrdy.
i have enuff things to do than to worry abt wat goes on beyond..
"dun look back in anger" by Oasis is playin in my itunes now..
i dun wanna look back in anger.
i dun wanna hold a single ounce of anger in me.
i dun wanna change to become an unreasonable person.
i dun wanna emo.
i dun wanna throw tantrums.
i dun wanna vent on anyone.
i dun wanna be like that.
take me to a place where nobody goes.
was at Old School at Mount Sophia and Wild Orchids at Mount Emily.
it was so pretty so quiet so nice.
a reali nice change to get a breather.
a nice free feeling. away from all e motion.
goin thru the motion is just too much for me.
i dun like instructions. i dun like to give any too.
i dun need to be happy, juz not awful.
ton said tht as long as it works for you. go for it.
but it only gets messier evrytime.
its so strainuous trying to get out of this mess.
i dun want anymore mess.
juz wanna breeze thru this period of time.
had enuff of wound up crazy ppl.
i dun wanna get invloved in their mess.
dun wanna try to make things better.
the more hands in the mud, the bigger the mess.
how can it only get better? how does it get better?
and so it is. i want life to go easy on me.
and it almost seem like the very outlet i could seek refuge is gone.
it seems like the door is closed on me.
dun wanna tink abt it.
im good. for now i guess.
~tas