been trying very hard to occupy myself...
holding two jobs now...
one in e morning n one in e evening...
come back tutor my brother...
mum's paying me quite well..
brother doesnt like his tutor wants me to teach him..
n im also a more affordable teacher...haha...
have less time to tink ..
my mind wanders less...
feels better...
but guess onli mentally...
physically tired evryday...
emotionally hurt...
been thinking to much... n thinking too much for too long...
...is really not good for me...
must get it out of my system....
be more numb.. more nonchalant...
n hopefully less affected...
im still feeling unwell...
plus a bad headache to go along with it..
had an okay morning in office..
manager wasnt in...
but loads of work to do..
it was fine..juz not perfect though..
cuz i was lonely n busy with piles of work..
e job in the evening sucks BIG TIME!!!
hated evry min of it....
though its duration was shorter...
it felt like forever...
dread goin back tmr...
duno if i'll still go not...
morelike..
i dunt have a choice... URGHH!!!
im tired of blogging...
shall slp early..hopefully feel better tmr..
hope work will gradualy get better... juz like ben said...
it got tis bad.. how much worse can it get?
but seriously i wont be surprised...
anw i tink i complain too much....
i shld stop.
~tas