new blog..
thx to xiu..
wldnt have had it done sooner without her..
anw xiu n wendy stayed over at my place yest nite..
finally had company..
been feeling very lonely n bored ..
no one to talk to at all..
hopefully my job will keep me occupied frm thinking too much...
reali sick of feeling upset so unnecessarily..
its not as if it'll make a difference to anyone..
had been thinking of many things...
hate my brains sths...
think n think n think non-stop..
reali frustrating at times..
cried many times...
i hate it..
hate it when other see me cry..
"dun cry out loud..
just keep it inside..
learn how to hide ur feelings.."
thts wat i tell myself all e time...
luckily most of e time no ones ard...
its just sad to always have to cry alone..
how i wish theres just someone dere for me...
someone to just listen to me...
its almost like i cant trust anyone anymore..
cant tell frm who sincerely cares for me..
n who's just trying to pretend..
its sad sths...
~tas