im feeling so lonely...
so lonely inside...
an emptiness i cant express with words..
duno howta explain tis loneliness i have inside me..
it not being physically or literally lonely...
but emotionally...
i always hav frenz ard me..
always have lotsa things to do all e time..
but no matter how i was so occupied i never cld satisfy the emptiness inside..
but somehow i duno how i can be reali happy..
talked to wj abt it yest nite..
it seemed im not e onli one feelin tis way...
its juz a feelin tht doesnt go away for some of us...
i like e times i have hanging ard shoppin playing n bumming ard with my frenz..
but sths i feel like i reali need someone who will reali understd me...
sths i feel like talkin to someone in e middle of the nite..
juz to talk.. juz to chat.. juz to have someone ard..
but i duno who to turn to..
its a sense of loss...
n sths tht makes me reali sad..
though there are instances where my friends will never fail to surprise n make me feel so blessed...
reali love it when ppl rmb me..
when ppl ask me out ...
be it shoppin or even juz hang ard for coffee...
juz like how xiu's always so nice n attitude towards me all e time...
but i appreciate her for all e times she accompanied me...
lend me stuff n let me stay over...
was reali happy when angeline called today..
asked me out... to go UK funfair..
though im not reali close to her n e bunch..
its juz super sweet tht e they rmb me n invited me along...
i seriously thoroughly enjoy all e times goin out with them...
they bring me happiness fun love joy and evrytink else nice n sweet...!
i LOVE THEM!!
xiu... angeline.. cheryl.. debra... ann.. bong.. yingwen... n my dearest penguin... angela! i miss you..
u guys are always miss by me!!
juz wanna say tht i will always always always love you guys..
reali duno wat im talkin abt already...
i dun make sense..
juz ranting abt e thots i have inside my heart n mind...
i feel empty still. inside...
~tas