i've come to realise tht despite evrytink...
i reali do have many frenz who love n kare abt me...
ppl who reali kare abt me despite their busy schedule..
took the pains to be extra nice to me...
taking the trouble to meet me n listen n talk to me...
somehow...having them in my life certainly means a world to me..
i thank God for them..
wldnt know wat i'll do without them..
guess its also bcuz of them i have actualli opened up alot more..
frm the quiet girl who keeps evrytink to herself..
to somehow who can speak her mind n say the things she wanna say...
i guess i have grown up...
i have matured quite a bit..
though i can reali be quite insane at times esp nowadays...
somehow it used to feel like a mask im wearing...
to cover my innermost thots feelings and emotions..
but now im beginning to learn to remove tis mask...
n stand out to be someone i want to be...
n to show my true self...
walking out of the pretence...
it feels so hypocritical...
not reali in a hypocrite way...
but more of juz being afraid to let others know the real me..
afraid of revealing the more fragile part of me...
therefore hiding it with laughter n smiles..
very much like how sad it is to be a clown...
juz hoping to bring laughter and smiles to others' faces..

had a nice long chat with my ex-bestfriend...
my new-found close fren to be..
haha... thx gen for e lil chat...
felt like old times...
in PRIMARY SKOOL! :)
to xiu n pau n xin n all e rest who called me aft tht...
sorry n thank u !!

shall go post n upload my fotos now.. toodles!
~tas