i dun understd why we communicate like this?
sths im not even sure why i even bother anymore..
and i dun even know if im actualli replyin rite..
was lookin thru some stuff the other day...
a card frm u for my bd u gave me e cd together..
guess evrytink was still in place.. even the wrapper of the gift..
when i read the words on it..
i realised tht things have really changed..
and sths i wonder if im still hopeful when someone makes a promise again..
cuz frm wat i know promises are often not wat i tink it is meant for..
when u said u promise..
wat i had in mind was.. he promise he'll keep his promise...
but now.. the definition of promise is now like..
a promise is meant to be broken..
dun try human nature n stuff.. selfish.. maybe thts wat i am..
like you said.. im not opening up to the ppl ard me who kare for me..
juz like how u dun to me..
i know they are trying to cheer me up..
juz as much as ur asking me to open up to them.. ur not really doing it urself.
its fine with me i guess..
i really dun mean to arrow you or anytink..
you have ur choice of who u want to mix with..
there is no lvl tht u have to adhere to..
you do wat u wish..i have no right to interfere..
im sorry if it makes u feel irritated..
i duno if theres anymore trust in us as frenz or not still..
though we dun seem very much like frenz anymore..
guess frm now on you wont ever have e chance to hear me insist on u doing anytink again.. i'd gladly juz leave n move on..
like you said.. ppl change..
i wont bear any grudge..
i never did.
so long as it makes u happy.

im talking far too much...
just one last thing..
dun keep apologising to me..
rmb we made a pact not to say sorry..
it doesnt make u or me feel any better dun u tink..
sorry doesnt mean anything if ur juz about to say it again..
you started off with sorry n ended with sorry..
i guess its my fault for all the tension as well.
sorry.

~tas