im so sick and tired of tryin to get things right...
im feeling so stressed out...
NTU stuff... hostel.. bunk mate.. application...orientation camp stuff and all the nonsense..
worked for TEC for the Asia-middle east dialogue yest & today...
ended reali early today..
dint know where to go..
met Qianhui for dinner...
which was good..
cuz i totally enjoyed juz sitin ard n chilling..
went shoppin aft tht when she headed back to work..
had a mini shoppin spree..
bought quite alot of stuff...
its wat most ppl call retail therapy...
well i guess it only worked while it lasted..
cuz aft tht i feel totally horrible all over again...
tis feeling sux big time..
it gave me so much time to start thinking all over again..
my mind is totally uncontrollable...
it stresses me out...
each time i have nth to do..
i feel so alone..
the emptiness eats into me...
scares me sths...
sths i wonder why i always work..
its tiring.. but it keeps me busy frm alot of unnecessary thinking...
im a thinker.. i tink too much at times..
n a worried one at it..
so the more i tink the more worried i get over lil stuff..
so i need to work... n do stuff..
keep my mind busy n tired frm tinking too much...
i need a break frm evrytink.
period.
~tas