its suffocating..
i keep lying to myself...
well i found out the truth today..
the truth tht i kept hiding to deceive myself..
knowing tht i was so silly...
all along i shld have known right from the start..
i choose to ignore the obvious..
clinging on to tht sth tht isnt there anymore..
not being able to slp..
unable to get a grip..
an ultimate loser of e century...
haha... so much for enjoyin my week..
it has to be spoilt by my own stupidity..
i shldnt have been so naive..
i now know the truth..
but wat am i going to do?
pretend again??
or juz smile n keep smiling..
that way it makes no difference..
smile.
~tas