huiying my colleague for a day...

worked for e first time in sooo long......
made new frenz...
a very nice girl huiying too..
haha.. will post fotos soon..
but not today though cuz im tired n lazy aft work..
haha..workin on my first day is fun..
luckily is onli work one day a week..
onli sundays.....!!
haha..
lazy me..
but i may start full time office soon...
by then means no more fun out slackin shoppin n stuff alrdy...
so sad..n sorry xiu ..
by then means no or less of stoning kbox chomps club driving n shoppin...
......
im still super scared for my A's results......
argh.........
~tas

im falling for tis song.... its very special... i love it...

Let it burn (Usher)

I don't understand why

See it's burning me to hold onto this

I know this is something I gotta do

But that don't mean I want to

What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you

I justI feel like this is coming to an end

And its better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you

I gotta let it burn

[Verse 1]

It's gonna burn for me to say this

But it's comin from my heart

It's been a long time coming

But we done been fell apart

Really wanna work this out

But I don't think you're gonna change

I do but you don't

Think it's best we go our separate ways

Tell me why I should stay in this relationship

When I'm hurting baby,

I ain't happy baby

Plus theres so many other things I gotta deal with

I think that you should let it burn

[Chorus]

When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to

But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to

Even though this might bruise you

Let it burn

Let it burn

Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you

Hate the thought of her being with someone else

But you know that it's over

We know that it's through

Let it burn

Let it burn

Gotta let it burn

[Verse 2]

Sendin' pages I ain't supposed to

Got somebody here but I want you

Cause the feelin ain't the same find myself

Callin' her your name

Ladies tell me do you understand?

Now all my fellas do you feel my pain?

It's the way I feelI know I made a mistake

Now it's too lateI know she ain't comin back

What I gotta do nowTo get my shorty back

Ooo ooo ooo ooooh

Man I don't know what I'm gonna do

Without my booo

You've been gone for too long

It's been fifty-leven days, um-teen hours

Imma be burnin' till you return

(let it burn)

[Chorus]

When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to

But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to

Even though this might bruise you

Let it burn (let it burn, let it burn, you gon'learn)

Let it burn (gotta let it burn)

Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know its best for yourself but you

Hate the thought of her being with someone else

But you know that it's over

We know that it's through

Let it burn

Let it burn

Gotta let it burn

[Bridge]

I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on

On the other side I wanna break down and cry (ooooh)

I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on

On the other side I wanna break down and cry (yeah)

Xiu, Serena and Vic.

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us trying to cook supper for ourselves! :)

me my lil bro n my cousin..bernice..

wenta my cousin's house today...
so fun...
its been sucha long time since i last talked to her..
i kinda miss e times when we were lil kids..
they used to always come over on evry sats juz to play...
we cooked supper for ourselves...

anw im startin work tmr at plaza singapura ...
selling Sony Ericsson handphones..
so if anyone wants to change fones or buy new fones..
pls approach me call me sms me wadeva...
haha.. n by e way im onli doin tis evry sundays.... :)
tmr will be a busy n tiring day for me...
hope evrything goes well.. :)
hopefully can do some shoppin tooo! :) haha...

ps: xiu hope ur throat's better cuz i still wanna go kbox... i'll promise to rmb to bring lozenges for you.. haha.. n if anyone else wanna go kbox-ing with us.. juz let me noe.. :) ciaoz..
~tas

im sad.

im feeling scared....
im blogging so much...
im afraid of gettin my A's results back...
im gettin e jitters already...
im feeling lost..
im gettin freaked out...

Dear God,
pls give me peace in my heart.
i need you.
onli you can give me strength.
i place my trust in you.
Amen.

~tas

im feeling so lonely...
so lonely inside...
an emptiness i cant express with words..
duno howta explain tis loneliness i have inside me..
it not being physically or literally lonely...
but emotionally...
i always hav frenz ard me..
always have lotsa things to do all e time..
but no matter how i was so occupied i never cld satisfy the emptiness inside..
but somehow i duno how i can be reali happy..
talked to wj abt it yest nite..
it seemed im not e onli one feelin tis way...
its juz a feelin tht doesnt go away for some of us...
i like e times i have hanging ard shoppin playing n bumming ard with my frenz..
but sths i feel like i reali need someone who will reali understd me...
sths i feel like talkin to someone in e middle of the nite..
juz to talk.. juz to chat.. juz to have someone ard..
but i duno who to turn to..
its a sense of loss...
n sths tht makes me reali sad..
though there are instances where my friends will never fail to surprise n make me feel so blessed...
reali love it when ppl rmb me..
when ppl ask me out ...
be it shoppin or even juz hang ard for coffee...
juz like how xiu's always so nice n attitude towards me all e time...
but i appreciate her for all e times she accompanied me...
lend me stuff n let me stay over...
was reali happy when angeline called today..
asked me out... to go UK funfair..
though im not reali close to her n e bunch..
its juz super sweet tht e they rmb me n invited me along...
i seriously thoroughly enjoy all e times goin out with them...
they bring me happiness fun love joy and evrytink else nice n sweet...!
i LOVE THEM!!
xiu... angeline.. cheryl.. debra... ann.. bong.. yingwen... n my dearest penguin... angela! i miss you..
u guys are always miss by me!!
juz wanna say tht i will always always always love you guys..
reali duno wat im talkin abt already...
i dun make sense..
juz ranting abt e thots i have inside my heart n mind...
i feel empty still. inside...
~tas

today...
wenta cedar to find ms chye..
but she isnt in skool..
so sad..
the skool's almost all empty cuz they have a day off today n yest...
so i made a wasted trip down...
sigh...
hope i'll getta meet her soon..
haha... anw wenta meet xiu n ps aft tht...in town..
they played me out la.. told me they're goin recruit express..
n they ended up at Zara trying clothes ...
saw the "filipino maid" dere..
i still tink she's very pretty..
n she's cool n have the attitude...
aft tht we finally wenta recruit express..
wasted alot of time dere waiting..
sigh.... cld have done lotsa shoppin loh..
wenta shop again aft tht...
drank mos shake..
bought sth to eat...
met vic aft ps went off to work..
shop a lil.. then headed to chomp2 for dinner..
had stingray and Lala AGAin..
haha...still taste as good as ever...
took fotos.. as u can see..
haha.... tired now...
~tas

woah.. reali tired these days...
need more slp la. seriously...

yest....
had basic theory driving lessons for driving...
gotta wake up super early...
at sucha heinous hr la....
wat made matters worse was tht i was almost late n yet i forgot to bring my booklet so i started panicking..
called the centre n all..
realised tht its not sucha big deal at all..
i can always juz get an extra identity sheet frm e counter..
when i reached dere xiu was dere already...
wat was so irritating was tht both of ur didnt realise tht lesson 3 n 4 is for advanced theory...
so we went too early...
our basic theory onli started in e aftnoon at 12.45..
so we went to st nicks to have breakfast...
aft tht we visited xiu's art teacher...
mr foo i tink..
he demonstrated how to use the potters wheel...
so we tried to learn howta do pottery...
i screwed up my ball of clay so bad i decided not to ruin anything else with my clumsy hands juz in case...
it was sooo fun!!
but my clothes were so dirty frm playin..
haha..but xiu's worse.. her pretty clothes were ruin...
haha... aft tht we went for our theory lesson ..
it was e most boring lesson we ever attended...
it was not juz bad... but totally horrendous!!!
seriously.. the instructers are soo not funny despite how much they tried to be...
anw.. we wenta town aft tht...
xiu bought so many things..
but poor me cldnt find anything i like...
so sad...
but still e shoppin was reali fun!!
xiu was super funni...
she sorta did a stiptease thingy at mango..
while trying tis pretty jacket...
she funbled trying to get her own clothes back on..
it was hilarious cuz half e time i was hurrying her but she ended up even slower than before...so cute la...
went bodyshop where xiu bought makeup.. wat a BImbo! haha..
i'd never get bored of SHOppiN!! haha..
xiu also wenta cut hair...
i was left dere gettin bored to death man....
it was terribly boring...i cld die of boredom!
anw.. went lido for dinner n met Esther dere!
wat a small world..
haha...
~tas

xiu me n vic.. at chomp chomps bus stop bench...

eat until so gross la.... aiyo... :) haha..

went back to cedar today... to visit ms chye... but sadly she isnt ard... skools empty cuz they had two days off... *sobz*

xiu.. looking so happy with her churros! so contented with her lil treat ! :)

Hilda.. isnt she pretty?? more like gorgeous rite? :) 

me.... 

at clarke quay mrt station... :) wats with e face... haha.. cool.. 

us... at swensens!! making stupid faces.. haha.. cute? 

Hilda n me!!! :) aft like 6 years since we last met up...had dinner together... :) 

will blog more abt today's wonderfully fantastic dinner date with Hilda...
e best dinner i had in ages cuz i had great company!!!
it was a great time catching up...
it felt totally comfortable talking to her...
we're frenz for like 12 whole years already...
but we onli manage to meet up today!!
happy is a word tht cant describe enuff how i feel today...
its like HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY....
a long lost friend found.....
its been forever....
i miss her sooo much...!!!
aft my driving lesson tmr...
cuz i gotta wake up like super duper early...
four lessons in a row...
luckily i have xiu for company ..
or i'll reali die...
gottta turn in soon...
tmr!
toodles...
~tas

the sweetest thing tht happened today...
juz a moment ago...
is tis... a tribute...debra wrote...
so sweet i tell you...
http://www.debra-khoo.blogspot.com/
i love ya debz!!
~tas

I'm Xiujuan blogging for Serena again! Yeah, because I'm bored!!

It's 4.15 in the am now, and I should probably be going to bed, but damn am I awake.

Serena and I are gonna learn our driving theory lessons tgt on thurs. WAH it's like school. Only longer. From 8+ to 4+. Please tell me I won't fall asleep and waste my moolah. It'll be so embressing if I fail. Shoot. I don't know where did that Fatty-lingo come from, but yeah.

AND THIS.


Serena, me and Laoshi. At SAJC funfair. :D *looks in pic again* Where's my balloon.... :(
I look shit bad without a single bit of makeup. Hell. My eyebrows are non-existent. I need to start getting vain again. These days, Ser uses more makeup than me. BAD HUH!

WOW!!!!!!!!
tis is one of the best chalet i Ever had...
well not to say tht the others were lousy ..
it juz tht tis one was super good...
it was nice n cosy...
felt v comfortable with evryone ard...
angeline, ann, cheryl, debra, yingwen!!
the onli spoiler was probably me..
cuz i had bad cramp cuz it was my first day...
felt quite uncomfortable but dint wanna spoil the fun of the others...
too bad angela, bong, shihui cldnt come along to join us....
or else it wld have been perfect...
we wenta buy the stufff earelier part of e day.......
marketing cum grocery shoppin...
had bbq.. went cycling... tried to teach debra.. haha..but she still dint manage to succeed on mastering it..
also went bowling.. strolled down east coast park... played indian poker.. mahjong..eat.. slp n play...talked.. laughed n had lotsa fun!!
perfect examples of slackers out to hav fun ...
before the BIG A'levels results are out!!
totally a good break frm working ...
went to kbox aft tht...
sang n sang n sang....
it was super cool n funny..
sang songs frm twinkle twinkle lil star... to jay chou... to rain drops keep falling on my head.. sang all sorts of songs...
thank goodness there werent glass windows in e room or it'll will crack for sure..
haha... its hilarious ...
laughed so much all day i was almost rollin on my stomach..
aft tht we even wenta Gelare to get ice-cream....
feeling fat fat fat...!! its seriously bad la...
eat slp play... perfect examples of pigs... haha..
well but its also fun fun fun!!
onli thing is tht i seriously need to get my hours of slp...
else i'll reali look like a panda
with two black eyes and big dark eye pouches...

anw the interview went well..
quite fun...will be working soon again...
not sure when though...
back to hectic life again....
anw got quite a good surprise today when i came home..
received a letter frm my china frenz...
*HAPPY and SATISFIED*
~tas

will post more fotos soon.. too many for now... till nez time.. toodles.. ~tas

me debz ann n yingwen.. all in bliss... haha 

champion teo looking gross.. haha.. 

yingwen... happy face... :) 

on e fone... dun disturb....!~! 

cheena pok taitai n me.. at mos! 

me debz catyu in shades trying to act cool... trying hard not to laugh... 

angeline singing with so much passion... 

cheryl acting cute... see e resemblance... monkeys... :) 

me n angeline.. at kbox..  

a clearer pic of us all on the bed... 

spot the difference.. same ppl.. but damn stupid actions n pose... 

wats up dere??? 

all of us at the chalet... like happy family foto.. 

hiding under e blanket... silly la... 

spastic ppl taking lotsa fotos.... 

will post chalet fotos soon.... :) 

You Are A Romantic

You are more romantic than 80% of the population. You life your life like a fairy tale... or at least you try to. Living for magical moments, you believe there's only one true love for you. Love is the most important thing in your life, and you don't take it for granted. Your perfect match loves to be in love as much as you do!

Are You Romantic or Realistic?

 

its time i start on my driving...
havnt even started lessons for basic theory..
im sucha slacker...
will hafta start real soon...
*sigh*
~tas

man... so many things happened today!!
the main highlight of e day is my uncle's birthday
....n tht i found a long lost friend!!!!'
well early in e morning my brothers plus me went down to his place to deliver e cake n presents....
it was so "cool" cuz my brother drove....
he seriously has a bad sense of direction la..
brought us ard on e joy ride...
if onli i got my license then tht wldnt have happened...
haha... oh well.. we managed to reach there finally aft who-noes-how-long...
sigh..
oh well went shopping aft tht...it was super fun ...
bought loads of clothes....
not reali alot actuali..
but compared to e lil shoppin i did when i was working..
n e lil new clothes i had for CNY..
haha... BODs n bodynits had some sale on..
we all bought like there was no tmr...
so fun!!
n the fun didnt end there.....
as i was walkin along town at wisma...
guess who i saw??
HILDA CHAN !!
GOSH.... it was like wow...!!
i havnt seen her in a thousand years man!!
it was ever since primary skool....
dinosaur years ago...
she still look as pretty as ever....
sweet n gorgeous!
cant wait for our dinner date!!
theres so many things to catch up...its gonna be good i sure of it!

anw i'll be having an interview tmr..
hope evrything goes well..
toodles!~
~tas

will start blogging soon...
duno why been so lazy these days...
went chinablack again yest...
man... wat am i doin with my life...
anw i found another job now..
selling sony ericssion handfones...
so if anyone wants to get a new fone..
rmb to look for me...!!
haha.. but i havnt start work as yet..
will be startin soon i tink..
at the mean time..
i've got like a million n one things to do still...
im also doin part time now..
forced by my mum..
so irritating la..
told her i dun wanna do already still force me...
but nvm..i get paid..haha..
anw tht means i hafta go thru all my sec skool stuff...
chemistry physics maths chinese ss geo history n stufff...
argh...hard work man...
but at least it shows tht i havnt reali lost touch..
cuz i manage to teach him MOLE CALCULATIONS!
WOW... haha... well but in cedar chem was my forte...
compared to then im like crap now...
haha...sigh...im so bored....
n busy at e same time....
next few days are packed as well...
haha..but i least i look fwd to chomp chompz again tmr nite!!
with xiu n ps..!! haha.. stingray again!!!
gotta go out soon...
meetin mum today...
oh well... till next time....
~tas

im feeling so confused... 

i tink im reali reali bored... posted soo many fotos...  

xiu took too! 

pretty car outside e cathedral.. 

looking in thru sacred eyes... 

xiu.. acting like a model... haha... cool shot!  

st andrews cathedral... so pretty... its beautiful... 

took foto at orchard mrt.. 

at chomp chomp aft some reali good dinner...!!! 

at yck.. juz finished signing up for driving.. 

HAPPY SWEET VALENTINES DAY

to EVERYONE!!!!!!!

today's valentines day...
wenta register for driving early in e morning...
with xiu...
actualli not reali early..
n mot reali morning...
its like 12.30...
but ended up to be at 1.30?
all e briefing n queue-ing up took so long it was almost 3pm when we finished...
im gonna be taking automatic...!!
haha...so happy saves e hassle of maual cars with clutch n stuff..
xiu's taking auto too!!
haha..aft tht we wenta taka to hand in my time sheet..
talked to jasmine for quite awhile...
then xiu wanted to take up a job offer...
then had some interview...
in e end she wanted out..
so she talked herself out of it...
haha..its reali quite funny..
but knowing her la..
always so undecided...
anw we wenta funan It mall to buy some stuff..
xiu hadta get a new mouse for bro n a card reader...
wenta deli aft tht...
chompchomp our last destination was terrific!!
havnt had sucha satisfying meal in a long time...
but we thot we were such great eaters to have a second round..
but guesss wat ?? we were both too full..
ordered too much food to finish...!!
wj ernest n j came over..
finaly passed them some presents tht i've been carrying ard all day..
so tiring man....
went back home soon aft...
good day on e whole..
laughed ALOT!!
took alot of fotos...
will post up soon....
soon...
haha
~tas

yest....
finally wenta church...
got flowers frm hueyying n jo!!
so sweet of them...
went to fish n co aft tht...
to meet the guys...
k n whyekiat...
councillors are meant to be councilors ..
half of them are not ard la...
dint turn up..
finally come out of camp..
but they're goin back in soon...
i'll miss them..
went back early to accompany len jie..
talked to her quite alot..
realised i miss her so so much!!
she's sucha sweetie!!

today...
went for cell grp tis morning..
at dengzhi's place...
had some fun..
laughed reali heartily...
dint reali laugh much these days...
then came back..
bought some presents for frenz for vday...
dint manage to give out all e presents in church tht day...
anw came back early cuz dere guests coming to my place for dinner...
sigh... tmr's vday...
dun reali have a date...
no valentine... *sobz*
but deres Xiu!!
who is gonna be my "date" for tmr...
haha...
finally gonna register for driving tmr!!
then probably go shoppin' !! haha...
wonder wat it'll be like...
~tas

Zebra on her birthday!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEBRA!!!

cool... 

k n jie!! 

calvin actin cool... 

weijie lookin like an idiot!! 

lenise jie, kenneth, jennie, me n whyekiat mother at Fish n Co for dinner...!

xiu-s in topshop dressing room.. tryin clothes.. :) 

my baby brother n me !! 

first time i took foto with my brother in a long long time..... 

shini amelia me n cailin !! 

lana n uncle james! 

me n my precious!! 

my new doggie! its name is precious!! 

went on a shoppin spree today..
bought quite alot of stuff....
spent quite abit...
muz learn to control..
or else i'll spend my coming payroll too...
bought a new toy dog too!!
quite a big one..
hadta carry it ard with me the whole time shoppin...
quite ma fan..
but glad i bought it!!
haha..well good day..
havnt been shoppin much in a long time..
finally had my fun..
quite tired though...
been reali tiring days...
im so glad i can go to church again!!
its tmr!!
haha..finally!! :)
i miss worship...
i miss being in church...
i miss them all...
im tired..better go slp soon..
else i hav no energy tmr...
nitez evryone...
~tas

i share the sentiments of many who tink tht tis yr's CNY is gettin more n more boring..
n tht the angpao money is gettin lesser by e yr...
but for now im no longer bothered abt how much i get for CNY anymore...
i've come to realise tht money isnt evrytink...
in fact it is wat degrades us most...
to be so materialistic...
i juz wish for a happy family...
and for it to stay tht way...
i want a happy life...
juz being happy evry single day...
~tas

for now....
i tink even the bubbliest person..
were to be out in my shoes...
wldnt be able to bring herself to smile....
~tas

yest nite had been a terrible nite for me...
thank goodness dere was weijie..
its reali sweet of him to accompany me...
though he was soo tired...
though i noe he wont see tis but i juz wanna say a big thank you to you!
i reali appreciate it frm e bottom of my heart..
thank you weijie!
~tas

today's e first day of the lunar new yr...
yet sth happened in my family....
sth horrible happened....
the worst of my imagination...
is coming to past..
my dad found out abt her...
they quarrelled alot...
i dread the worst...
i guess we all werent supposed to know..
n they duno tht i know..
n tht the other two now know too...
im scared.
duno wats next?
~tas

thx xiu for bring e cheesecake for me!!
ur e sweetest!! =)
supposed to meet xiu at 1230 at cityhall..
but i was late..
she was late too..
first time xiu's earlier than me!
haha..
met amelia cailin n shini today!!
a present too! thx amelia! =)
amelia.. juz wanna say.. hav a safe trip back to aussie..
i miss ya...
reunion dinner was boring ..
seems like sth happened...
~tas

XIU JUAN is super sweet she's gonna bake cheesecake n bring some for me to my workplace!!!
wow... no one has ever baked stuff for me before...
she's so sweet!!
haha...
anw work was quite fine today....
besides the jerk being ard..
evrything else is fine! =)
juz me being bored n tired half the time....
slept very pathetic hrs evryday....
sigh...
slp early today...
but its already so early..
haha
well....time to bathe....
n go to slp...
been working far too much..
cant wait till my whole assignment is over...
in juz 3 more days!!!!
argh...
~tas

oh.. btw thank you xiujuan for accompaning me!!
reali appreciate you coming all e way...!!!
u are the best man!!
the first n only one who visited me...
thru-out duno how long i've been working....
thank you again!!
sorri u hadta with stand all my whining n complains....
~tas

had quite a bad day at work today...
though tis is e first day i stopped work at e office..
it was supposed to be better in the sense i wont be so tired n all..
but turns out it was a terribly bad bad n did i mention BAD day!!
got scolding frm SUMIA!!!
she called Mark (my superviser)..
n complained tht i was missing frm work for 2 over hrs!!
i felt so unjustified!!
i soooo HATE her at tht moment....!!
not tht i didnt before tis incident...
she kept picking on me..
but luckily Mark is standing on my side...
hear abt the previous yr promoter frm e rest of the staff..
she was dismissed frm her job bcuz all e guys were busy flirting with her n cldnt concentrate on their jobs....
i was sooo sad....
how can she pick on me cuz of the previous yr experience with the previous promoter!!!
its totally unfair...
anw Mark said tht sumia has tis thing abt girls in the store...
so juz ask me to bear with her....
Mark wanted to directly transfer me to another branch tht is super near my place..
in serangoon gardens....
3 mins walk out frm my hse!!
but then i know tht it'd be v troublesome for him..
cuz he'd hafta call the guy at e other branch..
call recruit express...n all..
so i told him i'll juz bear with it...
he's been reali nice n patient all tis while...
guess i shld juz give him less headache...
so told him no need to transfer me out....
while i still hafta bear with the unreasonable tyrant of the century....
i guess i shld cool down..
been very rash lately..
rant n rant at her aft she scolded me.....
i tink sumia heard it..
cuz i was totally OBVIOUS!
aft all the things tht hav been happening..
guess i shld keep it low n be very very low profile..
best is shut my trap n stay quiet...
not talk to anyone unnecesssarily to avoid conflicts...
juz do things within my scope....
stay out of trouble...
~tas

A HUGE SIGH OF RELIEVE!!!
finally manage to quit my office job!!
u have no idea how happy i am now..
free frm work load n work stress....!!
though stuill workin e other job...
but its like a huge burden off my shoulders!!
reali gotta thank God for giving me all the strength!!
thank you Lord!!
im tired but cant get to slp...
thinking...
so many things happened despite e busy schedule...
*sigh*
~tas

work is crazy..
had a crazy start...
got lotsa scolding..
frm sam n sumia...
so irritating..
i hate you!!
but it ended quite well...
had ppl to talk to..
had ppl entertainin me..
had ppl bringing me drinks...
not like working..
its fine..but i dread tmr...
work again..
dread how slow time passes...
dread evrytink...
argh...
~tas

its been days since i last had a proper break...
n xiu has been meddling with my blog stuff...
fun hoh xiujuan??
haha.. anw.. i thot its quite fun..
well well.. have been workin evryday non-stop...
its been crazy!!!
15 hrs of work a day!!
so tired....
i've been encountering many weird people..
im all confused.. all irritated.. all pissed n headache at e same time!!!
n weird things tis pass week...
its been hectic hectic hectic!!
xiao already loh...
~tas