today..
been feeling all moody..
found out some stuff abt some ppl..
deeply shocked..
speechless alrdy...
e day ended with even more horrifying news..
not horrifying per-say..
more like unbelievable..
now i seriously believe never to trust my gut instincts totally as they mislead me..
vday is abt to come soon..
evryone else seem happily attached..
so many new couples recently..
i always loved happily ever after movies..
ever since a kid..
its seems like its the onli right thing tht shld happen somehow i feel..
lovey dovey couple wld be strewn evrywhere these few days as vday approaches..

am online in skool at lee weee nam lib now..
was suppose to catch the film "Lola" in the media resource lib juz now..
but as the lady said it the "hot film"..
and its wasnt available so here i am..
duno wat im doing..
muttering nonsense to myself..
blogging... n at e same time tryin to to tink of a storyline for my assignment due tmr for craft of writing..
anyone wanna help me with it??
my mind is brain dead la...
totally not working as yet..
i tink i need to cut slpin so late evryday...
seen the doc recently n realise my health is deterioating..
had tis minor surgery..
gotta go back again a few more times..
my eyes are killing me oso..
its a sore.. bad bad bad...
i've been hoarding a part of my life with so many things..
tryin to occupy evry minute of it..
now tht i almost have no time with frenz..
with those i was so close to once..
i almost feel like i dun belong anywhere...
i juz feel like giving up..

fact of the matter is tht no one bothers anyways..
other than dear Jo!! :0
thank u.. ur msgs mean alot to me..
but i guess i cant say im absolutely sad..
i guess i live a different kinda life now.
fulfilled in some ways..
but empty and lonely in another sense..

have not been studying much which is a big regret..
cuz i certainly do not have a sense of urgency to complete my assignments..
despite them having been ard for so long..
but like due e next day..
how slack can i be la..
procrastination..
kills.

i better get down to working on my paper for tmr..
by hook or crook..

anyways.. one apology to make...

SORRY ANN..

if u see this..

im reali reali reali sorry i cldnt meet u...

before u returned back to HK...

SORRY gurl..

~tas