my dear Josh baby.. cutie!!
Cherie n me.. during eh eh lecture.. :)
aft dinner at BOO's room.. COUNCIL!!

had dinner at can 3 with
boo pris ET and shiang came over aft tht with weian..
haha.. we definitely have to make it a weekly thing..
boo is reali hilarious la...
lover her man!!
dropped by her room...
super cool la...
she's reali one cool cool arty ADM girl!!
hope i can stay hall 16!!!!!! :)
~tas

finally...
dinner at hall 3 with councillors..
shiang yiwei boo..
wonder who else will be there...
BOO u rock!! :)

thanks so much for ur msg...
reali means alot to me..
somehow still...
goodnight :)

wish u can be e one by my side again...
to comfort me when im in a foul mood..
u always manage to...
been loooking for ur song for u..
e rainbow connection by carpenters..
anyone have it??
do let me know k...
thank u..

also.. thanks GEne for e present..
sorry made u come all e way down to Boon Lay..
reali sorry.. Thanks again@! :)

am in a super duper bad mood now..
was actuali feeling very HIGH..
very hyper.. BUT..
somehow someone spoiled it..
maybe they juz dun want me happy..
i never ever said im a nice person anyways..
im mean horrible violent n selfish..
HAPPY????
im so sad now.. i feel like crying..
and somehow its an uneasiness inside...
tht makes me feel like im heading for a breakdown...
i dun like a bit of tis at all...
im gonna crash..
~tas

add film strips instead of a pic..
duno why i even bother...
not as if im v free..
oh wellls..
time for a change i guess..
:)
~tas

why did it come to tis...
maybe tis cld be e last..
winding path down my face..
love is a pain tis time..
in tis lonliness theres nth to fear..
everytime i ask if tis cld be e last..
tht i dint need u more now..
randomness of weariness
u made me wanting to leave tis pain..
e truth may tear up my heart...
why am i still holding back my tears..
why do i keep asking..
if i ever will..
i need e keys to myself..
it sths juz draws me deeper..
maybe i will..
or i never will.
~tas

i can be free..
i can be free frm tis place..
help me believe..
help me to see everytink fall into place..
i need to believe..
wake me frm dreaming..
no more deceiving...
u keep me smiling..
u keep me flying ...
u keep me save in a crazy world..
Miss Silly
MIss Me
miss me?
miss me!
miss me.
~tas

had a dream of u..
happy i can talk to u..
even if its juz awhile..
~tas

is it for real tis time..
for once i actualli bother to msg u..
evryday oso feel like talkin to u..
die...im supposed to get over it by now..
yet im still gushing n face becomes hot when i do..
i gotta get thru tis.. :(
gotta take my mind off u..
sure one more moment it wld break my heart...
stop STOP STOPP!!!!!
~tas

finally get a breather...
its been a reali hectic week..
s many assignments to rush...
i reali need to get off MSN..
its killing me la...
never only love a NERD..
somehow..
haha.. cant tink..
wont blog further for now..
~tas

cant believe its FINALLLY DONE :)
stayed up almost e whole nite to do tis..
it better be good..
its almost 5plus now..
for e first time im so diligent!!
as in not reali la.. its last minute..
oh wells.. at least i did it...
emailed e prof..
but guess i'll still go down to see her later today..
hafta go back to skool early before dad heads to work..
muz drive myself back somemore..
but oh wells..
i love driving!!! takes e stress all away!! :)
goodnight WORLD...
not muc time now left to slp...
*ssigh*..
~tas

for so long i wish someone can make me reali happy n smile..
but all tis while all i felt was disappointments..
blogged quite alot recently...
juz need to get alot off my mind...
thanks DEBZ for e chat...

u are juz not who i used to know.
maybe theres nth there is to know.
i realised its not how long u know someone
but is how much u reali know.
i guess im down to my one lasy cry.
~tas

THANKS ALVIN for e present..
love e swatch watch alot! :)
~tas

its always been wishful thinking on my part..

finally..
done with ONE assignment..
but my HE210 is a goner..
i hafta be done it a minimum 10 page essay by midnight tonite..
oh dear.. im still at east coast..
grandmum's place now..
oh man.. im sucha procrastinator..
i kinda hate tis bad habit of mine..
i'd rather blog than do my research..
wat a PIG!!
*lazy bum*..
oh wells..

anws i fouund my new LOVE...
*D R I V I N G R O C K S *
takes my mind off alot of stuff..
my way of relieving stress...
all thanks to DADDY who gives me e liberty...
to have e freedom to go.. fast.. fly..
haha.. :) i love driving sooo much now..

wish somehow i wont feel so confused...
i've been boggled down by far too many things..
at least things at home is better..
relatively.. at least i yearn to go home..
maybe its juz my bed..
locked up in e room most of e time anyways..

things are taking a turn for e better..
maybe tis time its for real..
i believe so.
been thinking abt it less alrdy..
which is good..
thanks debz for e lil chat..
thank you! u are reali my dear friend..
thankfully i see u in skool quite regularly..
im so glad to have a friend in u..
~tas

my dear lala fwded tis...
think it sounds so sweet..
food for thot.. haha...
copied it here for all to see..

What to do to a Girl!!!!

1. If you like her...ASK HER OUT already!!!!!!!!
2. When you hug her, put your ARMS around her WAIST and hold her close.
3. When you walk next to her, get as CLOSE as you can to her.
4. If she's the only one in your life, TELL HER.
5. ALWAYS let her know how much you like her, love her, or think about her.
6. Give her presents and cards for no reason,
SHE WILL RETURN THE FAVOUR... ALWAYS.
7. If she hangs up on you, call her right back.
8. Always offer to pay. If she says NO twice, then let her pay but make a deal that
you get to pay next time (offer a date too!).
9. Kiss her lightly every chance you get.
10. Look in her eyes and kiss her on the lips, forehead, or nose.
11. If she says she's cold, don't be an idiot and say "Me too." and stand there; give
her your jacket or just simply hold her in your arms.
12. Don't force her to do anything she's not comfortable with.
13. Invite her to dinner or somewhere where you can talk, instead of the movies.
14. Try not to ask her if she's mad at you EVERY TIME you speak to her.
15. Always tell her you LOVE her only if you really mean it.
16. DON'T pressure her to do anything she isnt READY to do. When she is ready, she
will let you know. She just wants everything to be more SPECIAL and PERFECT.
So appreciate what she does do with you.
17. DON'T go and tell your friends anything that happens between you two, cause it
will hurt her and make her mad...and it will NEVER happen again.

GUYS- repost if you are going to treat your next gf this way, or do treat her this way.
GIRLS- repost if you think guys should do this

When a GIRL is quiet, Millions of things are running through her mind.
When a GIRL is not arguing,She is thinking deeply.
When a GIRL looks at you with eyes full of questions,
she is wondering how long you will be around.
When a GIRL answers "I'm fine" after a few seconds, she is not at all fine.
When a GIRL stares at you, she is wondering why you are lying.
When a GIRL lays on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a GIRL wants to see you everyday, She wants to be pampered.
When a GIRL says "I love you", she means it.
When a GIRL says "I miss you", no one in this world can miss you more than that

~tas

blogged n blogged n blogged...
like got alot of things to say..
but somehow its juz replaying in my mind again n again..
juz cant say in words..
tink im gettin boring.. :) haha..
music is nice today on klass 95..
my mood is good..
haha.. mood swings gone..
angel appeared..
theres a smile on my face again..
though things will never be e same again..
~tas

for once aft tis whole episode..
i hope i can reali move on..
no more being hung over nonsense..
haha.. pls hope i can reali get over tis time..
im happy now..
hope i'll stay tis way..
dun want anymore drama..
enuff for now..

happy today somehow aft all e drama..
had a reali reali nice chat.. :)
made my day :)
~tas

funny how someone can change so fast..
it amazes me sths..
why things happen e way they do..
im bewildered by so many things..
im happy then sad..
then find myself crying..
& then *ARGH* why muz things happen tis way??
~tas

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY????????????????
i wanna scream out loud...
i wanna cry like never before..
i wanna be happy :)
i really want to be.
~tas

i never wanna see u again..
i never wanna tink of u again..
i never wanna speak to u again..
i never wanna cry over u again..
i never wanna bother abt u again..
i never wanna be sad over u again...
i never wanna be affected by u again..
i never wanna hear anytink frm u again..
i never wanna be associated with u again..
i never wanna be heartbroken over u again..
i dun wanna be.
~tas

i'd never ever dare imagine wat i'd do if i were to see u out with her..
why dint it stay tht way..
for e past 2 years...
after so long i dint dream to meet u two together..
never in my waking moments have i thot of how i'd feel ..
i was totally caught off guard..
why did u hafta go there..??
why did u let me see u there???
u know im there evry week..
u know it..
but u hadta appear n let me see u there..
now it all comes in full cycle..
no wonder u chose tht place..
no wonder..
i duno whether to hate u or hate myself..
u claimed theres nth goin on..
u claimed tht evrytime i ask u are not..
why why why why why why WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
~tas

have so many things to blog abt...
but somehow juz cant put to words wat i wanna say..
anyways hope tht somehow my angel will appear..
hahaa.. i better not be obvious again..
will get myself into trouble..
hahaha..

having those horrible mood swings..
gets me irritated easily..
somehow..
hope it'll go away..
i have so much work n assignments to do.. sigh..

will be off to church..
soon... blog when im back..
:)
~tas

its all coming back to me..
mood swings fluctuating like tht..
making me feel so down n out..
~tas

xiu pau me chrys minli

my hall bday celebration

i have no idea how to describe wat happened last nite..
it was a blast.. seriously..
haha.. because of one person who made my nite.. :)
im almost gushing alrdy la..
cant std it..
haha.. but i guess it was nth..
sadly.. duno when will yest repeat itself again??
wished i dint hafta leave so early.. a pity..
why does it always happen at e wrong time..
but i was happy..
wats more funny is tht he wore both times PINK shirt!!
so cute la.. :) enjoyed evry minute..
onli regret was tht i downed too much..
was quite messed up..
lost all form of reputation..
haha
~tas

many thanks to bong robin jean nolan matayer pink dawn and all e others... love u all..
~tas

PQ Jaime at my hse..

had a great time..
hall frenz celebrated for me.. :)
so sweet... haha..
kinda knew it cuz haojie blurted it out..
haha.. but it was so sweet :)
thanks chua denice haojie loy toro weiqiang(oso for e fotos)
alvin edwin shunyuan guojun alex and jing-a-lin! :)

met becky to go over to shiang's hall..
vic was there too..
we ordered macs.. ate watch tv slacked n talked alot..
until reali gonna K.O..
slept over at becky's cuz was too lazy to walk back..
cuz it was reali damn far..
so late n dark too.. :p
went off to go for 8.30am klass.. can u believe it??
haha.. funny i survived..
thot i sure cannot make it..
then went for work.. and gonna meet xiu n pau..
i MISS THEM BIG TIME!!! :)
*YAY*
~tas

~without u.. evrytink in its place is not right.~

im so happy for once e dispute between my brother n i is gone..
as in for e first time in so long he said happy birthday to me..
its been c cold war state for a long time alrdy..
we've been bickering n picking fights at each other for so long..
its a reali nice way to start e twentieh year of my life :)
a great start to having better family ties..
im glad. reali.
~tas

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WENDY!!!!!!!!!
~tas

so many thank you to say...
PQ, Debra n Jaime..
for being there with me..
kexin my dearest all time best friend n dear..
thanks for all e gifts.. reali love them!!
to my cell unleaven bread.. thanks foor being my dearest cell..
darren ting dz keith charlene kevin kal hoe lijia bryan samuel rachel..
to my lil cell.. e lil sweet girls
JO claudia HY jonk steffy caron robyn xinen peizhi..
thank u my dear godbro...
thanks zhong..
thank u Esta!! :) its a real nice surprise!!
its been a long time since we even last chat..
thank u angel.. :) i miss ya..
thank u LALA and WENDY... greeting all e way frm US..
reali sweet thank u!!!! :)
roger for making my day and whole year happy!
to e rest for their well wishes..
pauline calin angela gf alex terence lanie jie bernie
esmond claudia jinglin nelvin vic meteor bernice
hilda louis cherie chua hc loy kenneth jon didi ervin
steph adeline eunice amanda alvin genevieve englye
weijie david becky julia coffee jenn matthew joy xiu :)
duno if i missed anyone out.. do let me know if i did yeah.. sorrry..
thanks evry single person!
*added to e list.. thank u yongjie, francis, Duane, shena-na, jolene :)
~tas

dun like e sound of it..
TWWWENTY...!!!
yikes..

was reali happy today...
had Debra over for a mini slumber party..
too bad angel cant make it.. *sad*
but theres always a next time.. :)

special thanks oso to PQ n Jaime who came down all e way..
and the SURPRISE with e cake!!
thanks for always remembering despite e many years..
since cedar days...
thanks PQ.. u've been a wonderful friend these past years..
MY SPECIAL PRI-SkooL FRIEND for life!!!
u guys have made my day!! :)
THANK YOU!
~tas

denice me chua
during productions at makeup room

my beloved Cell Grp - Unleaven Bread

at DBS rep threatre

Destiny our Queen of queens!

the Animal GANG

SHena-na.. e sweetie pie!

BECKY n me!! my one-night-stand!

Mr 55

PQ my "darling"

bong n me.. long ago..

haha.. like my papa mama.. hehe

Mr Roger!

Desmond the pilot!

juz sent out some emails..
duno why.. been feeeling so frustrated with myself..
maybe it all cuz of XX..
i feel like im gonna go mad soon...
had damn bad pain in e chest..
tink its heartburn....
horrible.. like heart attack la..
may be turning in early..

have been waiting online for damn long for MISS HOW ..
where are u??
u are almost uncontactable..
pls come online soon!!
else im gone..
~tas

skool's been a bitch!
i realised tis phase appeared in many blogs alrdy...
but i juz hafta steal it..
damn.. i realise i have been missing so much klass..
i feel so stressed..
juz finished some assignments..
looking fwd to e weekends to take a break..
have decided to attend all klasses for tis week..
i hope i keep to it..
else i reali gotta shoot myself in e head.. :(
*cries* i miss home alrdy.. *whines*
~tas

read tis frm an econs essay.. and decided to steal it.. felt tht somehow it describes life.. duno how to put into words how i feel.. so dun bother if u dun get it..

Seed thrown on a soil naturally fertile but totally unprepared would be an
advance almost entirely lost. If it were once tilled the produce will be
greater; tilling it a second, a third time, might not merely double and triple,
but quadruple or decuple the produce, which will thus augment in a much larger proportion than the advances increase, and that up to a certain point, at which the produce will be as great as possible compared with the advances.

Past this point, if the advances be still increased, the produce will still
increase, but less, and always less and less until the fecundity of the earth
being exhausted and art unable to add anything further, an addition to the
advances will add nothing whatever to the produce.

stayed home today did nth at all but slp..
seriously i am speechless la...
wasted my whole day..
the time spent slping...
oh man..
gotta go back hostel soon..
start of a boring week..
looking fwd to e weekend..
i miss home alrdy though i havnt left..
...
~tas

you are....
someone i cant hurt..
someone too fragile i wont wanna hurt..
someone i keep showing affection for..
someone i know i kare for alot..
someone i know i love so dearly.
someone i call my own.
once upon a time.
~tas

went to church today...
met becky shena na camilia n candice ..
made a new friend today!!
was reali nice to know someone new..
hilarious la..
had a fun time hanging out with them..
ate chomp chomp again btw..
love it when ppl come over..
and yeah had them over at my place..
ate talk n took lotsa fotos..
of which it reminds me tht i have so many fotos to upload n post!!
of the gang today.. Pq.. at blue Jazz..
all comical ppl.. laughed till i dropped..

last few days had been reali fun..
like when Paul came to stay over..
played bluff.. where i was e winner!! YAY!! :0
but he had to talk to therese at like 5am in e morning..
being a light slper..awaken cant slp..
haha.. F-ing la.. whole day Flirt...
haha.. but Paul's e ultimate bully..
always scaring me with his powerful punches..
genna whacked so many times alrdy..

anw.. i stil love to have ppl over..
last few days.. ppl here evryday!!
i love stayovers !!
other than e fact tht i lose all my pillow bloster n blanket to them..
sths even my bed.. hahha..
but i love them all..
evryone is welcome to my place...
come come come k.. :)
~tas

spent e whole day with ms How pq today..
supposed to be studying.. but..
spent my whole day laughing instead..
went to orchard library..
where ms how decided to play with my makeup..
n drew her eyes like a panda..
it was hilarious!!
she wasnt embarassed at all..
i was absolutely tickled by her e whole day..
she sorta put my mind off alot of stuff..
met quite alot of ppl..
saw huizi where i showed her e ugliness of PQ..
laughed so much i almost died...
we literally ate e whole day too...
fattening stuff.. pasta.. chicken.. icecream.. muesli bars..
chocolates.. to sum it up.. all junk !!
went back to my place...
ate dinner .. haha.. then.. home sweet home.. :)
shall post some pics in awhile..
im sure e pics tell alot more than my words.. :)
~tas

CHeeriobic 2006!!
it was simply FANTASTIC...
RSU was simply Amazing beyond words !!
ACES won e competition..
Jamie Yeo is a sweet lady..
reali nice...
reali tired day...

***
thank u for meeting me today..
u are e highlight of my day..
thanks :) somehow u never fail to make me smile..
***

Paul 7 didi bunking in my room now...
damn irritating la.. snoring...
mess my room..
threw my stuff ard...
steal my pillow bolster and blanket...
better not wake me tmr or i'll flip..
haha.. :)
~tas

MY HEAD HURT LIKE HELL....
and im goin to work soon...
i feel like crying..
i suddenly feel so exhausted..
突然好累。。 真的累了。。
goin home today.. ..
YAY! :)

ARGH... mummmy...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY..!!!
i love u mummy despite always snapping at u..
juz like u always do to me..
but i love u reali. i do.
~tas

i'll leave it all behind..
awakening..
dun expect so much of me..
im not who u want me to be..
im juz ordinary me.
could you look me in e eye n tell me tht ur happy now

living in utter denial
e more i try e further i am frm u..
its futile.
maybe
maybe its time i give up.
though i know tht tinks are alrdy as complicated as they can get..
i had a dream of u.
if onli it was true.
i'd give up e world juz to have u back.
i duno much but i know i love you.
`tas

im trying to study..
trying real hard..
Ann juz reminded me to have time management.. :p
oh man.. im sucha slacker lazy piece of rubbish..
LAla is always telling me to study..
but why cant i be a lil more diligent??
sigh.. :(
lousy me.. why?
dun expect so much of me..
i am not who u want me to be.
~tas

i duno .. i reali duno...
did i lose it alrdy..
so quickly..
someone said tht i was onli trying...
to convince myself all these while..
am i reali??
but i do feel alot happier..
juz tht when it comes down being all alone..
the pain n sadness kicks in..
will it reali come right back to kick me so hard..
so hard tht i wont be able to take it??
i believe im stronger than juz tht..
i hope im not juz convincing myself..
i had alrdy done so long ago..
maybe its juz mood swings..
all i need to do is let it all out.. :)
*smile*

had some fun talkin to some ppl today..
somehow juz made my day..
back to e old times..
juz talking nonsense n teasing each other..
im happy juz like that..
easily contented.
im happy :)
:)

~tas

had PQ BONG & ANGELINE over at my hse yesterday..
watched brokeback.. :) so gay lo... Ewww.. hehe..
oh man... dint slp much..
gotta drive to skool on expressway la..
drove 120km/hr max..
it was so fun to be in control of e car...
behind e wheel n goin so fast...
so cool so fun so impressed :)
hehe.. i love daddy! :)

i FINALLY GOT IT !!!!!!!!
A M A Z I N G!!
happy beyond words!!!!!!!!!
its my best birthday present tis year!!!!!!!!!! :)
thank u all who prayed for me n wished me luck...
i LOVE you all!!! :)
~tas

im gonna start driving lessons again..
hope tis time i will pass..
PLS pray for me okie??
reali appreciate it loads..
reali need it.. :)
hope i'll stay calm n juz get tis over n done with!
~tas