the 19th of march isnt sth tht i blogged abt alot i guess..
somehow as i told u..
my birthday wont be special since tht day..
u know it..
it was e day we ended...
ironical how 19th used to be so special to us..
when we started.
i dreamt of you again.
it was sth tht i wish wld last forever...
how many times i told myself tht somehow it will all come to pass..
we promised to be best friends all our lives..
u still do msg me randomness all e time now..
but for e past years?
19th on evry month...
i always promised sth special for u on 19th..
it meant so much to me..
rmb all e times..
all e bus rides..
the special memories i'll never forget.
wonderful times..
watch e planes take off n land at e viewing mall..
tht special 19th dec evry year..
when i know tht even when e whole world leaves me.
u wont.
i hate living in e past.
but u are onli alive in my past.
thanks for ur present for me tis yr..
i know i promised to use them..
i promised to be happy..
but how hard is it for me?
when i saw u there..
with her.
for e first time.
it never quite sunk in.
the truth.
till i saw u.
i swore to never ever be involved as a third party..
esp since its her.
i know tht she was e reason u lied to me for e first time.
now u tell me things tht i never dreamt possible.
is tis some kinda joke?
i called u for e first time in forever when things happened again at home.
u know i have no one to turn to when things happen.
u hung my call.
devastated me.
i fear it whenever 19th approaches.
cuz it brings back too many memories.
to the one person i hold so dear..
to you.
~tas