i never know wat u tink, how u tink, im always clueless to watever goes on in ur mind. sometimes i wish i know and understd you better than tis. sometimes i wish i can juz walk away. wish i can juz pretend nothing happened. forget evrytink. and move on.

i feel so lost n distracted. immersed in a world of my own. for once i feel tht i dun need friends around me. if its not u, i'd rather be alone. i dun mind being lost within myself. all alone. detached and isolated frm evryone else.

maybe thts wat i need. for a change frm having so many people ard me.
constantly wanting n seeking company. maybe its my fear i have to face. i need to face myself alone. face my fear of being alone. something tht i cant imagine i can take. i shudder at e thought of being alone. cuz i never like e feeling of being all by myself. its sad.

i used to think tht evrytink is gonna be fine someday. duno when but it will get better. but now i tink otherwise. things will not be fine eventually. its a farfetched belief naive people believe. argh.

had a bad bad day today.
you made it juz a lil worse.

~tas