incredibly alone.
surprised by myself.
realised i dun understd myself abit.
fascinated by e things i say .
fascinated by e things i do.
i dunno who i am.
i cant recognise myself.
confused by my own actions.
i dun feel comfortable ard u anymore.
i find myself speechless.
trying hard to tink of things to talk abt.
tis is not me.
i can no longer be totally me when im with you.
it happened before.
and now again.
havnt been able to talk to u inwhile now.
i feel kinda lost.
so helpless.

i've come to realise how scary people are.
fake n unimaginably hypocritical.
lie. lies. and more deception.
its frightening how cruel e world is.
when reality hits u.
it hits hard.

its never smart to be simple.
something tht i've learnt.
is e world reali a bed of roses.
is evryone born kind natured.
do simple-minded people get away w smooth sailing lives?
somewhere along e way.
its a mistake.

life is as sweet as it gets.
dun expect anytink more.
fairytales do exist.
onli in books for angels & princesses.
because of tis.
i know u deserve better.

i saw a kid tht looks so much like you.
reminds me of you.
ever so spoilt n stubborn.
silly as always.
but yet tht smile of innocence.
waiting.

absolutely alone.
~tas