there are some things i never understd..
some things tht are so hard to believe..
like how some things are so intentionally chanced upon..
while others are coincidentally coincidental..
certain things are juz unexplained..

i won $40 playing Mj with two experts..
its juzt luck isnt it...?
mind playing tricks..
i've been sick for quite some time now..
yet it feels like its intentional..
even i dun understd at all..
asked Alex to explain it to me..
even he cant give me an ans..
juz so tht i deserved it as much..
it hurts. it does. so bad.
kinda scared i hafta operate on it..
tonsils are swollen tht its visible on e sides of my face..
gosh.. somehow i duno wat im gettin myself into..
kinda stupid i feel.
who wldnt wanna get well, seriously.

like when i said i was totally over you.
yet i repeatedly mention you again n again..
its been a year now.
yet we cant even talk.
it seems so hard isnt it.
i duno if its excuses u came up with..
i guess i accepted it.
wishing somehow we'll be friends again.
nothing else juz as friends.
hard too huh...
i guess since u'll be goin to aust soon..
i wldnt be able to bump into you..
coincidents dun reali happen when u want them to i guess.
doubt i will getta see ya before u leave..
so.. all e best! :) takekare.
~tas