been a reali long long week..
many things have changed in juz a span of these few days..
shall not go into details..

but at least i got one thing right..
talked to him finally..
realised tht there is juz too much to handle..
im reali relieved at how things are.
it was too fast and
somehow i knew it wldnt last.
sometimes he messes with me so much..
cuz he can seem to be able to laugh at n abt any n evrytink..
evrytink seems like a joke to him.
though a big part of me dun wanna see him again
but i want us to stay friends
as when all e rest i tried to dint work
i hope tis will be different.
coffee n movie buddies.
sure hope it works out.
no more playin games.
no more guessing games..
no more awkwardness.
no more assumptions.

was reali happy i gotta see pauline lili n xiu so much more tis week.
plus eric andry n anton too.
reali happy for pauline now.
hope she stays happy. really happy.

went lili's place ystday..
watched chocolat..
its a french movie set in e revolutionary times..
reali nice set n costumes..
loved e whole feel of e movie..
though it doesnt have much of a meaning ..
i enjoyed it v much.

attended felicia's birthday party today at SMU.
pq ck kerrie zhenru n patty too!
HAPPY 21st Birthday my deAr!!
may u always be happy..
love ya girl!

also, i'll be taking one sem of skool at SMU tis sem..
hope its gonna be good..
two same classes as pauline n one with john...
not confirmed yet..
still not sure if i shld take it with him..
might considering droppin it..

i really hope i have toned down.
realise i can control my temper now.
e next i need to learn is to control my emotions.
it seems so impossible.
im simply too emotional..
i need to take control of my feelings.
dun need anyone to manipulate me.
i feel messed up.
~tas