the way things are now makes it all e more difficult for me..
i no longer want to whine abt u cuz i see no sense in doing tht..
or telling anyone for tht matter..
it upsets me how things have changed so fast..
when im feeling so emotional n it not meaning a thing to u at all..
guess i was fooled big time..
dint want any part of it.
it hurts.

For once in a long time i was high on alcohol.
the last time was dixon.
now its you.
why mess with my head.
it stings. it does. real bad.
i juz need and want out.
need to stop tinking abt u.
need to get over you.
feel so tormented.
its not worth it.
its suffocating.
wish n still hope tht things can go back to e way it used to be..
for some reasons i still do.
No reservations is almost out.
BUt i doubt u remember.
For quite awhile it sorta dawned on me tht there has to be something i dint do right.
dunoo wat it is.
will i ever find out?
i guess for a long while i was asking myself ..
juz was it wrong with me?
does the problem lie with me?
why does tis always happen to me?
was it sth i did or say wrong?
why does it have to be this way?

i tink im so over the top.

watched ratatoulie last nite :)
it was super cute!!!!!

stomach flu is KILLING me.
hurts like hell.
was so bad last nite i felt like i was gonna die.
hurts still on n off..
a whole lot better than last nite.
but whenever i have anytink to eat or drink it works up again.
hate tis feeling.
wish u were here with me..
to tell me evrytink is gonna be alright.

all these random thoughts.
arghh.
~tas