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i can believe how something so minor can juz affect me so much.
ever so often i tink i cant even understand myself.
im so tired of wishing waiting wondering....
juz wat i can do to make things right again..
all this time i figure if i could pretend its not there..
all e anxiety and uncertainty will go away.
but ultimately i am running away frm everything i know.
cuz the truth is i dun tink i know anymore.
being sick gave me an excuse to hide away frm everyone in e world.
though i know how much it hurts, but maybe if i pretend it longer..
it will all go away. it will fade away. cire.