i dun wanna know dun wanna feel dun wanna be anytink.
im numb and i feel so helpless. not good.

i wonder why i bother sometimes to be so bothered.
why cant i be a lil more nonchalant abt things goin on ard me.
why do i always get so affected and get myself feeling so upset.
i hate it tht u lie to me.
why all tht pretence?
for evrytink else i could overlook,
but i hate it tht u walked out on us.
once again, its in my face, blatantly.
im so disappointed, and i wish somehow i could tell you.

notwithstanding the face tht i let you down too.
im sorry chrys.
likewise its like payback.

i wish i wish i have a birthday wish tht comes true.
and i will wish tht it all all go away.
birthday :) im almost 23. wow. help.
~tas