been feeling awful lately. eating alot of chocolates, and i mean really alot of chocolates. but it somehow doesnt really help now. chocolates are supposed to make me feel good. but why not anymore? i dunnno i really dunnno. some how. maybe the emptiness gets to me.

was at brewerks today, i want so much to drink, but somehow i can even finish one beer. beat that. talk to shane earlier today. i realised so many things. his birthday celebrations, meeting with sami and all. yet all these are coming to an end. there is a possibility he might be working here if the interview is successful. somehow my heart starts to wonder.

and the macarones. i wonder. will they be shared again. or with someone else. someone im waiting for now. will i change my mind. cuz if one day i wake up and my heart will start to wonder or wander.

almost over you. i talk abt tht guy even when i am wit you and so do you. talk abt her. maybe u will mean tht much to me, but right now i havnt got up.

i was arranging my files on my com today and i deleted so many files. i dunnno when i find the guts to do tht. but i trashed everything. is tht guts or what? :D my com is clean. time for a change. move on. thats the book im reading now. been reading quite alot now. thats not my name.
~tas