I watched the walls around me crumble
But its not like I won't build them up again
So here's your last chance for redemption
So take it while it lasts 'cause it will end
And my tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

honestly tell me tht its over..
~tas

ignore my previous post...
promised xiu i'll blog
haha.. had og outings evryday..
went ktv. bbq. dinner. suppers. movie. etc.
lecture gonna start soon..
die.. im almost late..
gotta run..
~tas

back in hostel now..
havnt been bloggin ever since i went for hall camp..
haha..
juz a lil update..
im officially a resident of hall 11...
i kinda like it here..
seems much better than i expect it to be..
other than the one prob with my roomie..
which is like damn sad...
enjoyed the camp thoroughly...
its good..
though there were so many times i so feel like wanting out..

went ard hostel hopping alot the last few days....
visited all the seniors in e different rooms..
slept very lil since i moved in..
chilled in fellow hostel mates' rooms..
had alot of fun...
made alot of friends..
well its like one big family alrdy..
feels like it gonna be quite good..
hopefully..
haha

Block 54 is totally happening la..
thts where i stay...
but only thing im living on 6th floor..
climbing the stairs alone will kill me..
exercise loh..haha.. e ppl downstairs are gonna go jogging..
huimin n company juz came back..

i like hostel life..
slping at the wee hours in e morning...
room-hopping.. haha...
i love my hall.. (to be cont.)
~tas

stole tis off debra's blog cuz i was far too lazy to upload them frm my own camera..
i love hanging out with debs.. she's a natural.. pretty huh? haha..
debs .. if ur reading tis.. pls mind ur head not exploding frm ego.. haha..

wenta deb's hse...
took alot of photos..
will post them up later if i have e time..
haha.. funny man..

had lotsa nice sweet shots yest..
love sweet stuff alrdy..
lost my lenses..
feels like i was living in a world so blur..
head feels heavy now..
but i feel happy..
happy...

everything is permissible .
but not everything is beneficial.

guess i always wish tht in life i can fool myself more often..
living in denial sounds so pathetic..
like a bigtime loser..
but i wish sometimes i'll be juz less sober..
less smart and more ignorant to the things happening ard me..
though i dun see it doesnt mean its not happening..
ignorance is bliss..
but feigning ignorant isnt..
pretending sths not happening doesnt mean its not..
in fact it is and i know it..

been having lotsa driving lessons recently..
it feels so good to be in control..
it feels as if theres nth to stop me..
i can do wat i want as n when i like it..
juz hope i can get my license again..
dad was saying soon he'll hafta put up the B-plate again..
haha.. dreaming alrdy..
not till at least 3mths later man..
*sighhh*
oh.. and i saw SONA today at the driving centre.. so cool..
haha.. talked.. it was really good seeing and catching up..
hope to see more familiar faces ard..
~tas

incanto dream..
like he said..
quoted the love never fails verse..
somehow it juz gets to me..
hmmz..
~tas

i really have no idea how many new stuff i bought myslef..
like two new perfume..
incanto dream i bought out of stupidity..
cuz of one silly comment someone made..
it been stuck on my head forever..
i miss it alrdy...
i am a foolish silly cow...
countless new tops i made up excuses to buy..
new bag for uni..
super alot of driving lessons im taking n booking..
i feel so broke now..
been spending so much going out n buying stuff..
im so dead..
am spending even faster than i can earn..
but i guess i deserve a treat aft working so long...
sold both my fones alrdy for cash...
becoming a compulsive spender..
bought lil gifts for jaime ck and pq..
havnt seen them in quite awhile till today..
at billy bombers..
quite a cool place...
met so many familiar ppl..
so many familiar faces ard town..
ahha..wish the hols can go on forever...
im dreaming man..
haha..
~tas

DISAPPOINTMENT..
guess i never thot i'll see him dere..
and when i did..
he wasnt exactly wat i'd call decent looking..
always thot of him as someone i admired alot..
a "model example" turned bad..
guess he was kinda stunned to see me there too..

joel, cheryl, lam, shirleen, pris, junjie, aloy, sin, hilda n company, xiu and shuyun weiling many more were all dere today..
nth much to say juz tht i felt so relieved..
duno why..
quite bothered too..
wished in life.. there are so many things we neednt know..
tht we wldnt ever know..
ignorance is bliss..
ed's name came to my mind like a thousand times..
im finally admiting it..
but oh well..
wished somehow..
~tas

im sooo happy...
haha.. kind lil Ms Gan came over to my workplace today for dinner with me..
but as usual she was late..
haha.. but at least i got a treat to Thai Express...
which was quite good..
haha...spicy.. n shiok! haha..
n she got me chocobabies.. and mixed tic-tac in orange n lime-mint..
haha... Happy for once..
at least i have company..
she came over for awhile to my place too aft tht..
chat.. n slacked..
so happy to have company again!!
cuz e rest of the times are juz lonely me shoppin n doin stuff myself...
thank you girl :)
really appreciate it loads..
~tas

have quite alot of things to update on..
but oh well..
not really bothered to..

tues was last day of work..
been slacking alot since then..
not forgetting loads of shopping..
my whole month's pay is almost used up..
spent quite alot on stuff for frenz..
on clothes.. acessories etc..

where i've been and wat i've been up to e last week..
- town (big-time shopping)
- hospital - sgh (visit debs)
- club momo (w xiu pau bella check out new club)
- lil india.. (pangsei-ed/thread/shop)
- shaw (buy stuff)
- nydc (ting's celebration)
- ntu (medical checkup)
- jurong point (x-ray)
- marche (ann n debs)
- SSDC (driving)
- parkway (shop/fone)
- church (worship/service)
- chompchomps (supper)
- ann (over at my place stayover - slumber)

thts juz like a summary...
guess alot of in-betweens tht have been missed out..
but oh well..
~tas

have quite alot of things to update on..
but oh well..
not really bothered to..

tues was last day of work..
been slacking alot since then..
not forgetting loads of shopping..
my whole month's pay is almost used up..
spent quite alot on stuff for frenz..
on clothes.. acessories etc..

where i've been and wat i've been up to e last week..
- town (big-time shopping)
- hospital - sgh (visit debs)
- club momo (w xiu pau bella check out new club)
- lil india.. (pangsei-ed/thread/shop)
- shaw (buy stuff)
- nydc (ting's celebration)
- ntu (medical checkup)
- jurong point (x-ray)
- marche (ann n debs)
- SSDC (driving)
- parkway (shop/fone)
- church (worship/service)
- chompchomps (supper)
- ann (over at my place stayover - slumber)

thts juz like a summary...
guess alot of in-betweens tht have been missed out..
but oh well..
~tas

super cute foto.. haha

another one?

the "dao" picture..

happy family?

the lao shi(s)...

the proper class foto..

 

Ann n Debra..

xiu.. haha.. er.. no comments..

nel.. ahha..

who's taller?

vic n me!!

xiu n me !

pretty girls!

the couple.. haha.. so loving..

the affair... haha..

dinner? ice-cream..? Yami yogurt!

at the hospital with debra dear...

Joy stephens!! my DIV partner!

outside UAN ..frm left.. me pau xiu bella joy..

not much happenings in my life lately..
had quite alot of time to tink abt quite alot of stuff..
guess alot of the lil things in life mean a great deal to me..

tmr's officially my last day of work..
its been an eventful time dere the past 3 / 4 mths?
been thru "hell" n back..
its been tough n sths really tormenting workin dere..
but now its drawing closer..
its excitement, anticipation oso with juz a lil bit of sadness..

today jo n sue got my presents and a really pretty card..
also they sang me a really sweet song...
its the "have i told u lately tht i love you " song..
i was soo touched...
really...
sigh..
~tas

Debra's gettin better...
i hope she feeling better..
still bedridden..
but at least her palates level rose..
and she's finally of the drip..
but she constantly has to be monitored..
and oso take those dreadful blood tests and injections..
oso her liver inflamation is gettin better..
i she needs all the rest and most imptly prayers rite now..


went shopping ..
gosh.. its really addictive..
and its all in the name of skool..
like wat a fantastic excuse..
seriously now i know the term when they say shop till you drop..
cuz i literally dropped when i reached home..
too tired for anytink else..
two more days of work.. tues.. i cant wait..
and i'll be free as a bird..!
more big time shoppin.. :)
havnt felt so good in a long time...

last nite i tink i kinda turned back to e old me..
feeling all weary.. sappy... and upset with myself..
thinking abt old stuff and ppl whom i tink i can get out of my life..
they all returned to somehow haunt me...
i guess memories we have..
we can never seem to erase frm our minds..
~tas

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

im so sick and tired of guessing wats wrong with the world...
evryone seems to be having their own problems..
wish i can maintain the kinda perspective whereby im unaffected by all the happenings ard me..
nonchalant abt evrytink thts goin on ard me..
its painful sths to know tht ur dear friends are goin thru so much and u cant do anytink abt it..
its tiring.. really tiring ..
wish somehow i can dissolve..
so i wont keep feeling so crappy...

feeling so confused now..
abt so many things..
im like high on too much of myself..
wish i can juz stop evrytink juz leave to somewhere where deres like nth to worry abt..
to a place where theres no emotional attachments watsoever..

i wont be goin down to visit debra tonite..
so i have no plans now watsoever...
dun wanna go back early today..
anyone wants to have dinner out?
or juz chill..?
call me.
~tas

HappY BirThdAy QianHui!!!!!

visited debs today..
brought laptop n some stuff to help keep her entertained when she's bored..
sure hope they're of use..
she's better now..
tht poor girl.. sure hope the paletes will rise..
sure hope she'll be juz fine...
~tas