had driving in the morning..
at 8AM in the morning..
was kinda crazy cuz i dint manage to get much slp..
more driving in the weeks to come.. crash course..

took the day off to visited debs at the hospital...
jenn wei actualli brought his whole class down..
the whole troop visited her at her ward..
it muz have been quite a sight..
now i guess most imptly for her is prayers..
pls keep her in prayers..

then went for dinner with xin..
her post-birthday mini celebration..
had pasta for dinner...
been a long time since we last met..
its been mths alrdy..
how time flies...
~tas

dear ALL...
need a favour.. a plea to all..
evryone pls pls pls pray for my friend..
a really close buddy of mine.. Debra..
she's got dengue fever..
now hospitalised.. at TTS..
pls pray for her ..
hope she gets well really soon!
pray for a speedy recovery ...
~tas

HappY BirThDaY XIN!!!!!

26th council rawks!

ironically... and coincidental things happen...
they juz all fall in place too aptly.. or shld i say..
too unbelievably .
someone asked me if i was in love .
the next thing i know, his nick said 'i am in love'
i guess we both live in a different world .. have totally different lives ..
i juz hope he'll be happy.
thts all tht matters, i'l be happy too :)

tok a super long time to get to work today..
bus stalled and took forever to come..
met duane later at the NEL train station..
it was hilarious how blur we both were...
it so happened we boarded at the same train n are heading the same direction..
and heading for the same place..
wat was so funny was tht..
..as blur as we both cld get..
we actualli got on the wrong train at the wrong side when we transfered at Dhoby Gaut..
cuz we were busy talking ..
i was almost late for work at the roadshow..
at the roadshow i met Lee Theng.. Olivia..
whom duane n i happen to talk abt earlier on e journey to work cuz we saw kevin..
apparantly.. olivia juz launched a new album in spore..
she juz came back awhile ago..
and she was at cathy cineleisure for a performance to publicise her album at the teenage idol contest.. the place was so packed.. saw yew ling n her family dere to support her as well..
and tis is actuali the first time i heard her sing live.. she's good!
had her earlier albums..
this one's her latest one..
all the best to her! :)

i've cheered up quite alot the past few days..
for those who know al tht happened,
dun worry im a happy girl again ;)

it has been really fun shoppin the last few days..
never felt so good before.. :)
i'll be off tmr.. on leave.. so anyone wants to go out? ;P
~tas

Dare to love.
we live life only once.
why issit tht im afraid of the one thing God created us to..
love one another..

there are so many things i wanna thank God for..
the first and foremost.
i thank God for giving me a place in UNI..
it made me appreciate it so much more than i wld have if i got the place rite from the beginning.
Praise the Lord.

Been having insomia lately..
cant slp..
if not i always feel so troubledin my head..
throbbing headaches..
argh.. i hope it'll all go away..
~tas

and i dun want the world to see me..
cuz i dun tink tht they'll understand..
and when evrytinks meant to be broken ..
i juz want You to know who i am..
pls juz let me feel u right now..
there's a song thts inside of my soul..
its the one tht i tried to write over and over again.
but it seems to me tht the song is dying out..

juz when i thot i feel a lil cheered up..
u came rite in n splashed it all away..
juz like water.. all the cheeriness euphoria any tinge of glee was drained away by the comment..
the comment u made tht dint mean much to you..
sth u say so easily..
coincidentally stabbed me so hard i wanna break down n cry..
im shuttin off early tonight.
~tas

im teribly sorry to evryone & anyone i showed attitude to the past week...
my apologies. feel so guilty.
guess many things happened..
a really confused kid right now.
someone shld juz bane me frm goin out..
guess the one time i splurge is when im at my worst..
retail therapy.. i juz hafta say it does work..
but only at the thrill of the moment..

finally got my wireless in my room..
still gotta change my computer screen and mouse..
shall go shop soon..driving starts soon too..
finally..
~tas

i need a break..
im tired..
i wont cry..
~tas

crap... evrytink i juz blogged vanished !
evrytink is juz not goin my way...

ended work early today...
went down town again..
wonder wat im doin in town again...
wanted to go shoppin..
but apparantly town is soo crowded..
tink its cuz of the mango sale..
theres no way i'll join the crowd...
shopped ard alone..
i feel so lonely alrdy...

i hate it when you are sths hot yet sths so cold to me...
its driving me crazy alrdy..
all i want is juz a lil bit of love...
seems like a fairytale..
*shutup!!* (to me...)
~tas

my heart feels so heavy now...

the passing on of someone is so heart-breaking..

though she now leaves to go to a place better than now..

a paradise with God..

i cant help but feel affected by it...

its heart-rending to see granny's downcast eyes ..

tearing in grief..

looking so bitter...

my heart goes out to her..

its upsetting really.

Rest In Peace.

^tas

cant seem to post my pics..
its so frustrating..
guess if i cant find anyone i'll juz find a random hostel mate..
does it really matter anyways?
oh well.. anyways..
anyone wants to catch the show alot like love??
the one starring Ashton Kutcher and Amanda Peet?
oso.. i really wanna watch Initial D... :)
let me know k..
~tas

and so it is...
as you said it shld be...
if i'd find someone to love me..
like it is in the movies..
how nice wld tht be..
to be in love so madly.
in a fairytale so lovely.
~tas

im so sick and tired of tryin to get things right...
im feeling so stressed out...
NTU stuff... hostel.. bunk mate.. application...orientation camp stuff and all the nonsense..
worked for TEC for the Asia-middle east dialogue yest & today...
ended reali early today..
dint know where to go..
met Qianhui for dinner...
which was good..
cuz i totally enjoyed juz sitin ard n chilling..
went shoppin aft tht when she headed back to work..
had a mini shoppin spree..
bought quite alot of stuff...
its wat most ppl call retail therapy...
well i guess it only worked while it lasted..
cuz aft tht i feel totally horrible all over again...
tis feeling sux big time..
it gave me so much time to start thinking all over again..
my mind is totally uncontrollable...
it stresses me out...
each time i have nth to do..
i feel so alone..
the emptiness eats into me...
scares me sths...
sths i wonder why i always work..
its tiring.. but it keeps me busy frm alot of unnecessary thinking...
im a thinker.. i tink too much at times..
n a worried one at it..
so the more i tink the more worried i get over lil stuff..
so i need to work... n do stuff..
keep my mind busy n tired frm tinking too much...
i need a break frm evrytink.
period.
~tas

anyone free for dinner weds? tmr nite? :)
give me a call k..

Looking for NTU hostel-mate...
anyone interested? pls call me asap...
really Urgent!
im still caught in a dilemma...
but i dun tink i'll go..
save the hastle...
but its my future.

i hate it when u leave without a word..

*never was and never will be.
you've got evrybody fooled.*

~tas

i dun understd why we communicate like this?
sths im not even sure why i even bother anymore..
and i dun even know if im actualli replyin rite..
was lookin thru some stuff the other day...
a card frm u for my bd u gave me e cd together..
guess evrytink was still in place.. even the wrapper of the gift..
when i read the words on it..
i realised tht things have really changed..
and sths i wonder if im still hopeful when someone makes a promise again..
cuz frm wat i know promises are often not wat i tink it is meant for..
when u said u promise..
wat i had in mind was.. he promise he'll keep his promise...
but now.. the definition of promise is now like..
a promise is meant to be broken..
dun try human nature n stuff.. selfish.. maybe thts wat i am..
like you said.. im not opening up to the ppl ard me who kare for me..
juz like how u dun to me..
i know they are trying to cheer me up..
juz as much as ur asking me to open up to them.. ur not really doing it urself.
its fine with me i guess..
i really dun mean to arrow you or anytink..
you have ur choice of who u want to mix with..
there is no lvl tht u have to adhere to..
you do wat u wish..i have no right to interfere..
im sorry if it makes u feel irritated..
i duno if theres anymore trust in us as frenz or not still..
though we dun seem very much like frenz anymore..
guess frm now on you wont ever have e chance to hear me insist on u doing anytink again.. i'd gladly juz leave n move on..
like you said.. ppl change..
i wont bear any grudge..
i never did.
so long as it makes u happy.

im talking far too much...
just one last thing..
dun keep apologising to me..
rmb we made a pact not to say sorry..
it doesnt make u or me feel any better dun u tink..
sorry doesnt mean anything if ur juz about to say it again..
you started off with sorry n ended with sorry..
i guess its my fault for all the tension as well.
sorry.

~tas

had lotsa fun meeting up with the councillors..
at nat's hse..
the first thing i reached.. they told me to get lost... so sad...
cuz i wasnt sherilyn..
the star of the nite...
she's leaving to Aussie soon...
like all the rest said..
GOD BLess Australia...
horrible ppl..
ended up stayed over at his place ...
had quite a chat with some of them..
talk to ET..
he's full of philosophy ... so well-read.. unlike me..
n daniel sadly dint allow us to ride his motorbike..
its like so cool... len was playin with his helmet n all..
took some foto with them..
horrible Kenneth didnt even say hi till later tht nite when most of the rest left..
so much for being buddies... but at least he stayed over too..

at church was E-weeek.. had fun serving food..
felt like i was back in camp again.. haha..
haha.. too lazy to blog anymore...
man...i miss all these ppl so much...
will post all the lovely photos up soon..
adios for now!
~tas

im beginning to feel a sense of fear..
duno why..
it seems like whenever sth feel like its coming my way in a good way..
sth will stand in the way n spoil evrytink..
its like the feeling of dancing with tears in my eyes..
~tas

did some shopping with xin today..
bought a new top..
a new bag..
two pairs of shoes..
and accessories! :)
happy.
met xiu for dinner at her place..
watched perfect murder on dvd..
cool show.. n needless to say there was viggo in it!
haha.. typical of Ms Gan :)
watched more episodes of OC on my com..
time to slp now..
~tas

its ironic how some ppl can make all the comments they want...
...say all the noble things they want but do not do.
promises that they never meant to keep they say..
cmes out of them like water flowing out of a tap.
i wished u told me earlier so my efforts to salvage tis friendship tht means so much to me wldnt have gone to waste..
u made me feel like a fool.
a utterly useles fool.
u tink its fun? or even funny?
i really dunt know.
im sorry if u tink i only look for ya when im sad n down..
if thts wat u tink of me..
by all means.. tink all u want..
if u tink tht of me..
i guess i have nth else to say..
hate me, ignore me, wadeva u wish.
i guess tis has come to an official end.
whether or not all tis mean a thing to u at all..
i guess im in no right to say anytink at all...
and definitely no part of it as of now.

a friend once told me..
its comes a time when we realise tht the firendship has come to an end..
theres no point tryin to keep it going or holding back anymore..
its time to let go.
i was skeptical abt it at first..
i always thot tht close frenz stay close at heart always not many how far apart they are..
but guess im wrong.
n i tink you are rite.
you are rite abt it all along.
but i choose not to believe.
i was in denial all along.
you were rite.
now i know.
finally.
its the end already.
the moment u shoved it back at me.
~tas

its been quite awhile since i really blogged a public entry..
my life has been quite a rollercoaster..
but i juz wanna be happy and thts all tht matters now..
had a really hectic schedule the past two weeks..
hardly had anytime to go out to chill with my dear frenz..
dinner anytime anyone?
i have two weeks of hols off working..
took leave.. so anyone free for a drink or lunch or dinner?
juz msg me..or call? u know how to get me..
had a few birthday parties on..
samuel goh tan and angeline..
happy birthday pepz! to al whose birthday is coming soon too..
which includes xin's..
oh dear.. means its time to go shoppin for presents!

had reali fast n furious endless amount of work to be completed in so short time..
Geraldine's out of town..
Hooray! :) means no working.. which explains my leave..
soon i can stop workin for her!

had a camp as well for 4 days...
it was madness.. super tiring.. exhausting..
super drama as well..too many things happened in too lil time..
i guess at time dere are just things we have to let go..
cuz sometimes deres no point holding on cuz it wld be courting trouble on my part..
i'll give up and tis time i wont ever try again.
i used to tink i never learn..
cuz im still hopeful..
but now i know its not worth it.
no one apprecaites it.
no one treasures it.
like i do.

i nevr knew friendship are meant to work out tis way..
promises are lies tht are meant to fool you.
im disillusioned by the way things turn out.
i never meant any ill-intentions or hidden agenda towards you..
but u juz had to shove me like tht..
saying the things u once promised u'd never say to me..
n not doing the things u promised u'd do.
LIES. LIe. LIES..
deceit.deception.feint,,,
its all bullshit ..
forgive me if i wont trust u again.
i cant anymore.
i wont ever.
a least for now.

was listening to "..dun cry out loud.."
n i tears started streamin down my cheeks..
"..juz keep it inside...kearn how to hide ur feelings.."
why issit tht when u feel down u are not supposed to express it?
isnt it really sad tht way?


it wass quite a crazy week.. was up to my neck..
had to rush to sony for work str8 aft we break camp..
n in the midle of it.. had some meeting at Ritz ..
last two days was full of fun workin at Nokia Connection at Ritz Carlton...
made some reali nice ppl..
Jarred.. with out him i'll be bored to death..
Katerina.. a pretty model who gets paid like almost 10 times of wat we get...
a super super kind-hearted gorgeous lady...
super nice karen, liz, yuuso, aziza frm Nokia..
wanjuen, eeteng, pauline frm TEC..
Daniel.. another model.. who witnessed my fall.. thx for the help man..
a real gentleman i must say.. good looking too! :)
too bad i dun have fotos of him.. else im sure Xiu will find him cute!
shared a cab with him to work cuz coincidentally he stays in gardens too!
all thx to Jarred! i saved on cab-fare.. :)
n there was pris jiayi .. jordan jj sq sin aloy n pepz dere too..
so good to see familiar faces again... happy..!
~tas

pavan (pervert?) xin n jarred

Jarred n me.. workin buddies.. !

Yuuso n kat.. haha.. so sweetish.. :)

the ballroom..

me n kat.. at our Desk..

Gorgeous Katerina.. pretty huh...

Jarred n Katerina.. posing for the cam?

Yuuso. n cool bkgrd.. like tis photo.. looks so cool..

the event at Ritz Carlton Millenia... in the Show room where i was workin at...

the Nokia live connected event..
super cool place to be in..
getta see the newest latest phone tht have yet to be released or sold in stores...
getta see n talk to VIPs, Gorgeous Models and made many new frenz...
n my job is e best ard...
registration..
meet ppl..
smile talk chat..
eat sweets..
give away free gifts n sweets..
sit stone rot n get paid..
haha...
check out the photos...
~tas

in the maze...

david the photograher for the day...

maze monster..

chair soccer game.. game master..

the MAZE!! its A-MAZ-ING!!

jingmin n joanne.. haha.. thirsty??

our dear "red ridding hood" n "ah-ma wolf"

playing jacob's ladder! my game!

scared lil girls... haha.. look at jessica's face.. haha..cute!

our dear robyn protectin the shoes??

playin games..

our dear keith wong pigging out.. haha.. caught in e act...

my dear cell pepz..

samuel's birthday celebration in church! :)

birthday girl with teo n yu..

at angeline's birthday dinner.. with angeline n cheryl in e pic..

debra n me..

first up.. blogging all abt wat happened in youth ministry camp...
too much to say.. too drama..
well.. will post some pics abt it first n blog abt it later on...
~tas

and so it is...

like you said it should be..

..cant take my eyes off you...

...cant take my eyes off you....

~tas

i have sooo many things to blog abt..
but so lil time..
1. Dinner with Gen n Hilda.. :)
2. Took leave n Met up with Ann n Debra :)
3. Met Xiu and Pauline for the nite :)
4. Angel's Birthday Party :)
5. Cell + Work today..

nice summary rite? haha.
goodnite to the world :)
~tas

Finally... photo of the day! :) haha... pictures galore...

RL...

mama.. papa.. baby...

*sigh*

Ms Tai Tai..

she's going mad..

Ms Gan..

xiu and me at ya kun..

missy Pau...

me n pauline@!

act sweet... but quite la.. she gave me a tumbler poor bear.. but the boy-boy one.......

act cute..

EWWwwwww... haha... gross!

she's in fairyland....

SPoiler... ugly face!