Pictures from yesterday.. :D
went for a spin.. always makes my day..





i wish i can do something better with my life..

make some right decisions..

do something right for once..





yoshihiko bought me something from koh samui..

like for the hundred time...

jus too sweet n too nice.. thank you.



sometimes i just duno wat to say anymore..

speechless.


~tas

met FS for dinner yesterday...
he bought a new car..
BUT he is selling his superfour!
no more bike rides :(
went for a long long spin around spore yesterday...
had soo much fun! :D
the thrill of it is indescribable..
enjoyed evry minute of it..
thank you FS..
it means alot to me.
thank you.
u always manage to have tis effect on me..
a sure fire way to brighten up my anyday..
took alot of final fotos with his bike..
for e last time..
shall out up e fotos reali soon when i get down to uploading them..

halloween was awesome..
it was really fun to see people dress up to the nines..
or maybe not.. gore n blood..
definitely not my thing but it was fun!
dint bring camera unfortunately for halloween...
so i juz hafta wait for ppl to upload to send to me!

many reasons to be both happy n sad.
but i wanna now choose to be optimistic :D
~tas

Don't ask, don't say.
Everything lies in silence.
~tas

i know wat im doin now is extremely foolish.
i denied myself all rights to say anytink anymore..
to you to my frenz n even to myself..
denied myself any right with you n to myself.
i know so. but i did so too.
i know i now no longer can say anytink or hold any expectations.
all the heartaches im gonna feel.
all the pain i have to go thru.
all the encouragement i will no longer have.
im in this by myself now.

im scared tht all i do now is in vain.
im scared tht i cant face this all by myself.
im scared tht i have to live with this all alone
im doing this so i know sometime down e road i wont look back to regret.
regret not doing something abt tis.
all i ask is for u to be here with me.
to give me the courage i need.

~tas

hiatus.
wont be posting for awhile...

All i want is for you to be happY.
~tas

duno how to feel.

duno wat is real anymore.

~tas

its when ur hurt by the someone tht u love.
thats when it causes you the most pain.
~tas

duno wat tis means to u anymore now..
i guess i had enuff.
duno wat this means to u now.
too tired to try to figure out.
too exhausting for me.
the last stunt u gonna pull anytime soon would be goodbye.
and i wld mean it.

yoshi totally made my day today..
he bought me presents from hongkong disneyland and from bintan.
really sweet of him. was totally speechless.
thank you you.

Johanna was awfully sweet too!
msged me to ask how was i..
and i feel totally missed :D

Pernilla invited me to the spanish exchange party tmr as well..
was tinking if i shld go cuz it reali sounds like fun! :D
well i guess we'll see...

felt so happy today all day..
though it was a long long day..
despite the cramps..
it was a day of smiles! :D

tuition at 8am again tmr..
*sighs..

well i tink u fell aslp.
nitey anyways!
~tas

im super duper whiny today....
why ahhhhhhhh?
pms pms pms.
in pain.
but today is happy pms.
no emo shitte :D
*yay*
~tas

migraine so bad today i skipped class.
gosh. im a lousy student.
cramp again. yvonne told me dark chocolate helps!
wat an excuse to eat chocolates!
feel so cold all day today..
feverishish.
dun wanna fall sick.
need rest. lots of it.
but class ends late tonight 10plus.
tourism. hohoho.

Alex long i want my treat soon! :O
when when when when when?

might drop by to visit weijian before meeting later..
hopefully enuff time..
its sucha quiet day today..
went cedele for dessert with my colleague!! :)
gtg for meetng alrdy...
LOL.
iltb~!
~tas

had tuition early in e morning at 8AM!!
my two hour tuition became almost 5hours!
it was crazy...
but oh wells..
class was so boring..
luckily got pauline david ems yinghao n company..
else i'll be bored to death..
long day but at least it ended with u :D
falling sick. felt so cold all day.
hope im wrong.
thanks again tummy boy! :) ilu.
~tas

my tummy boy..
my mr popular..
my mr borders..
my handsome...
my silly boy...
my sweetie pie..
who loves to sing :
"careful wat u wish for..
cuz u might juz get it all.."
i love my tummy boy boy..
~tas

it tears me apart to see u so upset.
wat in e world made u tink for a second tht i did it on purpose
i dun derive a single ounce of happiness to see u upset.
it stabbed rite to my heart when i saw u cry.
never ever imagined anytink like tht.
and to let u know i was never angry with you.
i guess u shld know i am e kinda person who runs away.
when i meet with something i cant handle.
and i seriously duno if i can handle this.

i guess i cant blame it all on PMS. but seriously.

my cramps was so bad all day..
so so so so bad i cried.
n wats more i had to work.
it was so awful.
hurting so bad.
awfully tired.
but at least at the end of it all i got to see you.
thats all tht matters.
thats wat made me smile.
~tas

super bad cramp.

cramping so bad and feeling so cold.

thank goodness there was u right beside me.

holding my hand.

thats all i need.

~tas

Happy Birthday Alvin!! :)
~tas

would you rather love and get hurt,
or have never loved at all ?
~tas

last few weeks were time most well spent with people i love n care abt e most..

met up with sooo many people...

spent some quallity time with those i havnt seen in a long time..

and especially those dearest to me..

thank you for being there for me always..

the fun times.

the very fun times.

and the extremely fun times.

loved evry moment of it.

enjoyed evry moment.

ilu.

~tas

i know i can get emotional sometimes..
just ignore me when i am..
cuz i slp over it n will be so fine aft tht..

a gazillion thank you-s are not enuff to say thank you for all e joy u brought me.. :D
dun get the wrong idea.
its juz my way of saying thank you. thats all.
rest assure it doesnt mean anytink more.

im not asking anytink of u..
not expecting anytink as well..
i know ur leaving end of this yr..
and i know nothing can change tht..
~tas

i was so filled with hope today..
feeling so excited abt it all..
finally found something for you..
waited the whole day for ur call..
so i can give u a surprise..
in the hope u will like it as much as i was so excited..
but it dint happen...
as much as i thought abt u all day..
i guess maybe i shldnt put too much into this altogether..
maybe it just wasnt meant to be.
its so early into this and i can feel my heart aching..
maybe i was just being silly.. so silly..
maybe i shldnt sink into this..
it scares me.

i've always believed tht its always an excuse with busyness..
tht one has no time to call to say gdnite or drop an sms..
only time will tell.
~tas

im so confused.
im so addicted.
im so worried.
im so scared i cant let go.
~tas

A gazillion thank yous are not enuff to show how glad i am for all e joy u brought me..

i smiled.
i love the way u care abt me.
i love the way u calm me down.
i love the way u are so sweet.
i love the way u give in to me.
i love the way u pacify me.
i love the way u get so uptight to explain things to me.
i love the way u get so nervous.
tas :D

to be in the arms of someone who truly loves and cares about u is bliss..
and im looKing for tht bliss...
~tas

numb i know i just shld be numb.
it shld always be the way.
then and now.
still shld be.
really need to snap out of this.
told you right from the start.
it shld always be the way.
i remembered when e last time i said,
"I'm sorry, I love you."
~tas

Question.
in the face of a dilemna .. wat do u do ?? flip a coin or play eeni meanie myni mole?
when ur confused ... do u juz pretend to understd or ask till u get a satisfactory answer?
why does it always happen tht things never work out the way u want it to..
can u do anytink to change tht? does it happen?
discover the meaning of life.
wat is it? at this point of time.
~tas